Today I will enjoy
I woke today shaking. Not because of uncertainty but that of low sugar. The migraine I gained from 3 days of crying is enough to teach a person NOT to cry. And you always wanted to know why I don't cry. Well now you know.
Today is the start of something clean. I feel eased today. The need to just enjoy the day. In doing so I will make the most of my time. I spoke to very few people last night and that was good because of the migraine and the questions.
Yet no matter, I still have support. I am so surprised that they all reminded me that we are imperfect, that we are very weak. They told me to find me. To me that was odd. And even a brother just blurted out to me to find me, in Jehovah, with Jehovah.
That is such an amazing save of compassion. I seriously was harming myself into saying I shouldn't listen because I am far from Jehovah.
Yet last night when the migraine was high, Jehovah helped me. All the ways he helped me control the pain was phenomenal. So many times in the night I couldn't even think but each dream was about pulling out all the pain and sucking it away, permanently.
Granted it is not completely gone. Just more controllable today. I promised myself no crying today. Today is to just enjoy the day.
However trying not to argue with my mom, well we are different and butt heads all the time, will be a challenge. I snicker. It is worth irritation. It makes me seem real again.
So here I think of what I am to place inside a zippered leather. Uncertain but nothing has to be planned today. Its crazy how so many things had to be planned. I am grateful that parts of those things are gone.
Still I want to talk but I cannot. I will learn. And when I finally accept it I will soar. Time. Jehovah knows I need a bit of time. To many things. Especially meditate. So.
Today I will enjoy the beauty of nature. Walk on some beaches, soak in some sun and enjoy the Spanish Moss.
Today is the start of something clean. I feel eased today. The need to just enjoy the day. In doing so I will make the most of my time. I spoke to very few people last night and that was good because of the migraine and the questions.
Yet no matter, I still have support. I am so surprised that they all reminded me that we are imperfect, that we are very weak. They told me to find me. To me that was odd. And even a brother just blurted out to me to find me, in Jehovah, with Jehovah.
That is such an amazing save of compassion. I seriously was harming myself into saying I shouldn't listen because I am far from Jehovah.
Yet last night when the migraine was high, Jehovah helped me. All the ways he helped me control the pain was phenomenal. So many times in the night I couldn't even think but each dream was about pulling out all the pain and sucking it away, permanently.
Granted it is not completely gone. Just more controllable today. I promised myself no crying today. Today is to just enjoy the day.
However trying not to argue with my mom, well we are different and butt heads all the time, will be a challenge. I snicker. It is worth irritation. It makes me seem real again.
So here I think of what I am to place inside a zippered leather. Uncertain but nothing has to be planned today. Its crazy how so many things had to be planned. I am grateful that parts of those things are gone.
Still I want to talk but I cannot. I will learn. And when I finally accept it I will soar. Time. Jehovah knows I need a bit of time. To many things. Especially meditate. So.
Today I will enjoy the beauty of nature. Walk on some beaches, soak in some sun and enjoy the Spanish Moss.
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