Walking, breathing
My soft bits of rain. So ever clearing. The strength I feel as I stand there absorbing. Yet its not really just strength but willpower to push on.
My sensitive skin, my shaking soul and my undying spirit. That is what hold me up today. The power Jehovah puts inside of me to keep going. So resilient I am. Even though the mind is crumbling and the heart is dying. I still move.
While doing my morning routine I was thinking over so many things. As that is something I do the first few hours of my day. I thought of all that was told, all that I experienced, all that happened and I still just stand agape. The tiniest of detail were never just us. It was all three sitting there. It truly makes me wonder if I really was a friend or just a form of gossip between the two of you.
Still. I don't wager anything on now. I just sit in a curious stare out my window, as the words connect and the scenes are put together. I truly was a fleck of dust.
Kind of degrading but I did place myself there. Unknowing of you both but not the least bit surprised with all the slyness that I read.
Ah but that is all hindsight. I did my part and now I reap for what is sown. I learned.
So today is a day even though I am weakened I am still capable of bouncing back. All because I have done so before. Today is for me. No smiles. No crying. Just me walking. breathing.
Still there is so much vibrancy in me but not today. I just am walking, breathing. Having faith in Jehovah and his decision.
And not holding truth in anything said by any parties save what I remember. Yet it was a fantasy too.
So here I just breathe. nothing more to sit with except to stare out windows.
My sensitive skin, my shaking soul and my undying spirit. That is what hold me up today. The power Jehovah puts inside of me to keep going. So resilient I am. Even though the mind is crumbling and the heart is dying. I still move.
While doing my morning routine I was thinking over so many things. As that is something I do the first few hours of my day. I thought of all that was told, all that I experienced, all that happened and I still just stand agape. The tiniest of detail were never just us. It was all three sitting there. It truly makes me wonder if I really was a friend or just a form of gossip between the two of you.
Still. I don't wager anything on now. I just sit in a curious stare out my window, as the words connect and the scenes are put together. I truly was a fleck of dust.
Kind of degrading but I did place myself there. Unknowing of you both but not the least bit surprised with all the slyness that I read.
Ah but that is all hindsight. I did my part and now I reap for what is sown. I learned.
So today is a day even though I am weakened I am still capable of bouncing back. All because I have done so before. Today is for me. No smiles. No crying. Just me walking. breathing.
Still there is so much vibrancy in me but not today. I just am walking, breathing. Having faith in Jehovah and his decision.
And not holding truth in anything said by any parties save what I remember. Yet it was a fantasy too.
So here I just breathe. nothing more to sit with except to stare out windows.
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