I felt real. I am real

I felt like a real person today. The talk made me see so many scriptures Jehovah had given me. I was thankful. Hopeful.

The nerves were settled and the anxieties washed away. I felt as though I really was in a family. Truly a remarkable feeling.

Real. Real.

To finally feel real. Just so wonderful how I can be happy again. To know I am capable of feeling uncertain but being free and happy about my concern of others.

The watchtower taught me more. All I had to do was just listen. Absorbing the information. Hoping that everything that is weighing inside my heart will be done away with.

My slate cleared. Still the haze of chalk but slowness in the healing. Finding where Jehovah wants me. Giving me the food where it was necessary.

I lean into wanting to know more. It is a great need I have. So wonderful.

Now I need to meditate over all that he has given me. Lean on Jehovah as I grow once more.

Indeed.

I look forward to these moments.