Downtrodden

I felt so lost today. I tried to greet people and make my face shine. Yet I know I looked downtrodden. Still I was there.

Sad that I felt as though pieces of me were gone. Empty and shallow. So much of curiosity and yet I maintained my spot.

I won't say I am concerned but the weight is heavy. On top of that is the evil stares as though all that is transpiring is just from me.

Yet I cannot be the only blame. There are others involved and their faces and names have to be known. Sure I was key points but I wasn't main course.

Never was.

Sometimes the rancid stares are just people that are battling themselves and I do want so badly for them to know healing has to come from everywhere.

Can't just point the finger at me. Yet I know I was a major key player but NOT the only one.

So yeah I felt a loss inside and once again as the slipping of the world's pressure upon me. Then the fact I am there. I know my needs can only be met there.

Only thoughts are of those who are wandering. Needing to explore to get free.

Yet I can't think on that tonight. Too much indigestion from the nerves and too many bound springs. Just need to finally end all.

One day.

Yet nothing can be said but I hope all keeps well.