Changing me.
Hmm. Lots of poems left. Still a stack of 45 pages are left. I look forward to changing the many tirades I had in each. None are the same. So much has fallen from my past.
Listening to Coming home part 2 and onto Gravity. I must say this has changed me. These allowances to finally open up. Sure they said some vivid pieces of me. Even low to the core of me. Yet they help me grow.
I look into the deepest part of my pain. I see I helped. I laugh. In fact I held the door wide open for the destruction to come in.
Apologize is now falling into the lyrics. One of my good song to pull me out of a funk. I let so much destroy me. This is one thing I know I will never get. Nor will I let the words drip from my lips.
I have taken too much and have been dished the same. In some ways worse.
My trust issues have soared and the temperament I have for others are ultimate low. Even those I would normally talk to. No need to expand. It just will take time for me to disperse all the categories of a heartbreak.
I laugh.. The song that has entered now is Just a kiss. I still smirk. I never allowed us this. It was too personal. I couldn't let you the chance to dig into me anymore. Not after I realize you moved on.
I was not allowing you to kill me every time we met. I didn't want that closeness ever to get there. I stopped loving you then. I stopped caring. I knew.
I changed so much in the last year. I experienced so much that I was waiting for the ultimate slice. I thought my accident would be it.
Then the appearance as though I meant something. I didn't understand that piece. Were you scared you would have lost me? Oh that isn't possible. By then I knew I meant nothing. So I still to this day don't get the need to talk to me on my day of survival.
I will never understand those moments.
Forever. Fireflight.
No. I never. I can't understand that. I accepted that was the last day. Forever.
Now all the parts of me fade. I don't want to look back. I just want to move forward. More poems to come another day. Or in a few moments.
I will never understand you. I tried, once.
I gave up. I truly gave up.
Now I walk away from trying.
Listening to Coming home part 2 and onto Gravity. I must say this has changed me. These allowances to finally open up. Sure they said some vivid pieces of me. Even low to the core of me. Yet they help me grow.
I look into the deepest part of my pain. I see I helped. I laugh. In fact I held the door wide open for the destruction to come in.
Apologize is now falling into the lyrics. One of my good song to pull me out of a funk. I let so much destroy me. This is one thing I know I will never get. Nor will I let the words drip from my lips.
I have taken too much and have been dished the same. In some ways worse.
My trust issues have soared and the temperament I have for others are ultimate low. Even those I would normally talk to. No need to expand. It just will take time for me to disperse all the categories of a heartbreak.
I laugh.. The song that has entered now is Just a kiss. I still smirk. I never allowed us this. It was too personal. I couldn't let you the chance to dig into me anymore. Not after I realize you moved on.
I was not allowing you to kill me every time we met. I didn't want that closeness ever to get there. I stopped loving you then. I stopped caring. I knew.
I changed so much in the last year. I experienced so much that I was waiting for the ultimate slice. I thought my accident would be it.
Then the appearance as though I meant something. I didn't understand that piece. Were you scared you would have lost me? Oh that isn't possible. By then I knew I meant nothing. So I still to this day don't get the need to talk to me on my day of survival.
I will never understand those moments.
Forever. Fireflight.
No. I never. I can't understand that. I accepted that was the last day. Forever.
Now all the parts of me fade. I don't want to look back. I just want to move forward. More poems to come another day. Or in a few moments.
I will never understand you. I tried, once.
I gave up. I truly gave up.
Now I walk away from trying.
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