Pliable she is. cold I will remain
And I was called cold hearted. Wow! I am amazed just how true that rings upon your head. Sociopath. So clear that you are capable of mass manipulation. Even loving and losing. I hope that hurt you so bad. I really want you to know how devastating that is to lose a child. How hurtful it can feel when nothing can bring back that package.
Hurts doesn't it? You actually did love once. Well I am grateful to being the established downfall you were going to use to gain what you wanted. Wow. I meant nothing to you. I was just a path you needed to walk. Interesting just how much it took to look away.
To this day I deeply despise you. The core of me is so angry. That is what you wanted right. You wanted to spit on me because I was the dirt. I get it now.
Why not just be upfront? What made you such a baby in telling the truth? You broke me. Just as you wanted. I was a good work horse right? I turned out just as you wanted me to.
I hope that helps you one day. To know the hurt. To feel the broken. To understand all those who you have killed inside. I hope you learn to grasp it.
I hope that Jehovah feels my need for pain. I really think above all how much you can slice a woman in two. The thrill you gain from it. Phenomenal. To think I wanted to thrive within your walls. I should have listened when you defended you love of your life.
I should have run away. Far away so I never had to see the pain inside of me stab over and over again. Yet I stayed thinking you needed me. What a joke! Yeah you needed me to be the downfall so you could be happy with someone. Anyone. Sadly I see that as your turning of the tides.
A slow churn of who you are. All exposed. Now I have no love for you. I have no respect for you. And I find it truly funny the charade you are playing right now. Whatever for, I hope it breaks, crumbles before you, fast.
Yet I can't have revenge upon you. I can only choke down cries as I listen to the truth of matters from others. Still I want to know one thing - why? Why be such a wiener about things? Why not just man up and ask for things you truly wanted from those who suck the life from you?
I willingly wanted to let go. All I needed was the push away yet you couldn't have that. The need of me was to help you escape. So you could attain your love of your life. The one you truly hoped to be with.
Yet, why bother stringing the bridge we built with lights when all it needed was the burning match? I would have tossed it so willingly if you had just burned me well. Told me the truth about her. Yet. You clung and I have no understanding to that.
I will continue to talk here. I can talk about anything here without putting names to faces but those who know and understand will get it. I tire of always being that lie you had to maintain for what, a hard drink?
Well drink up. Overdose. Whatever. I have heard enough to last me a lifetime of pain. Thank you for being such an a hole. You hold onto your hope of her. You may just get her if you keep trying. She is still soft.
Pliable. Whereas I am cold.
Goodbye enemy
Hurts doesn't it? You actually did love once. Well I am grateful to being the established downfall you were going to use to gain what you wanted. Wow. I meant nothing to you. I was just a path you needed to walk. Interesting just how much it took to look away.
To this day I deeply despise you. The core of me is so angry. That is what you wanted right. You wanted to spit on me because I was the dirt. I get it now.
Why not just be upfront? What made you such a baby in telling the truth? You broke me. Just as you wanted. I was a good work horse right? I turned out just as you wanted me to.
I hope that helps you one day. To know the hurt. To feel the broken. To understand all those who you have killed inside. I hope you learn to grasp it.
I hope that Jehovah feels my need for pain. I really think above all how much you can slice a woman in two. The thrill you gain from it. Phenomenal. To think I wanted to thrive within your walls. I should have listened when you defended you love of your life.
I should have run away. Far away so I never had to see the pain inside of me stab over and over again. Yet I stayed thinking you needed me. What a joke! Yeah you needed me to be the downfall so you could be happy with someone. Anyone. Sadly I see that as your turning of the tides.
A slow churn of who you are. All exposed. Now I have no love for you. I have no respect for you. And I find it truly funny the charade you are playing right now. Whatever for, I hope it breaks, crumbles before you, fast.
Yet I can't have revenge upon you. I can only choke down cries as I listen to the truth of matters from others. Still I want to know one thing - why? Why be such a wiener about things? Why not just man up and ask for things you truly wanted from those who suck the life from you?
I willingly wanted to let go. All I needed was the push away yet you couldn't have that. The need of me was to help you escape. So you could attain your love of your life. The one you truly hoped to be with.
Yet, why bother stringing the bridge we built with lights when all it needed was the burning match? I would have tossed it so willingly if you had just burned me well. Told me the truth about her. Yet. You clung and I have no understanding to that.
I will continue to talk here. I can talk about anything here without putting names to faces but those who know and understand will get it. I tire of always being that lie you had to maintain for what, a hard drink?
Well drink up. Overdose. Whatever. I have heard enough to last me a lifetime of pain. Thank you for being such an a hole. You hold onto your hope of her. You may just get her if you keep trying. She is still soft.
Pliable. Whereas I am cold.
Goodbye enemy
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