Gratitude
One more time I go into a loving place and yet I don't feel loved. I feel love of only from Jehovah. I have said nothing and yet there are the stares. I have become accustomed to always seeing them. Feeling the burn inside my skin.
I have been so used to that, that I no longer become offended from it. I know my traits and all that I have done up until now. I even shake because I hate myself for those things, yet I don't back down. I know what was said and what was done.
Still I have to be extra cautious. Not saying anything to anyone. Just building my relationship with Jehovah. That is all that matters at this point. To really appreciate his love for me. It is certainly undeserved kindness. For I know I SHOULD DIE. I deserve it. Yet Jehovah sees something in me. Not sure what but he does.
No matter what the corrections are I am happy knowing Jehovah loves me enough to give discipline. I am so thankful. So overwhelmed by his love.
Still I prepare myself. All in hopes that I remain calm and peaceful. Not wanting to cause more harm than done. I only hope to absorb what Jehovah is teaching me today. That is the importance of each and every day from now on.
Perhaps childish to think that but I am his child. I am capable of being responsible for my actions and taking the stand and the discipline when it is given. I understand that it is out of pure love.
Yet I still am scared. I know Jehovah sees my shaking and my nerves. Yet I stand in shining blue and I am radiant because he loves me. That is my confidence for now. I know it is small but it is a mountain to me.
Gratitude.
I have been so used to that, that I no longer become offended from it. I know my traits and all that I have done up until now. I even shake because I hate myself for those things, yet I don't back down. I know what was said and what was done.
Still I have to be extra cautious. Not saying anything to anyone. Just building my relationship with Jehovah. That is all that matters at this point. To really appreciate his love for me. It is certainly undeserved kindness. For I know I SHOULD DIE. I deserve it. Yet Jehovah sees something in me. Not sure what but he does.
No matter what the corrections are I am happy knowing Jehovah loves me enough to give discipline. I am so thankful. So overwhelmed by his love.
Still I prepare myself. All in hopes that I remain calm and peaceful. Not wanting to cause more harm than done. I only hope to absorb what Jehovah is teaching me today. That is the importance of each and every day from now on.
Perhaps childish to think that but I am his child. I am capable of being responsible for my actions and taking the stand and the discipline when it is given. I understand that it is out of pure love.
Yet I still am scared. I know Jehovah sees my shaking and my nerves. Yet I stand in shining blue and I am radiant because he loves me. That is my confidence for now. I know it is small but it is a mountain to me.
Gratitude.
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