Thoughts that just ramble.
Life's bitter moments. I have been sprayed with so much today and last night that I have had enough. I soon await the streams of yesterday, scrolling right out my head. The silent screams, the echoing sobs all that so I can finally get back to healing.
Today was the final straw. I await my declaration. I have decided many things but all with Jehovah. Lots of changes on my end. I no longer care what you think of me. Today has just been that rude awakening that I thought was over long ago.
The mind says just walk away. Just whatever is decided let that be the first day of my life. I have lost so much but I know I was willing to give it all up, just for that one time. Yet after hearing what I heard today, I will never have been there. I wasn't even in the runnings.
I was the crazy lady. Yeah. I exhale a sigh. The body is burning and the spirit is trying to find the wings once more. This is the last spell you cast. Oh I don't believe in magic but I have to listen that you are a sorcerer. You bind so much with charm and lies that some are willing to do anything for you.
Well just mark me off. I have died enough inside today to last me a lifetime. The strength I saved up for my announcement are gone. I live each moment as my last.
My ears are ringing from the numerous things that were said. I really don't even know if anything we had even as friendship was true or if you planned from day one. Still none of that matters anymore. I just await the decision that helps me grow.
I have heard so much that my mind shuts down. I just sit here typing away without the notice of words. Whatever I say here is just rambles and somehow they make sense. So just stop listening to me. I won't change you and I certainly won't be influencing anything you think.
I can't see how what I say is anything. Yet you are so curious. Its sad.
Leap. Fly. Get away. You have no means to read my work anymore. I mean nothing. So leave my pages alone.
Though something in you want to know how I am doing. So much of you wants to say something yet I think that I hit all of you on the tack in all my poems these last few days. So I can't image why the need to see more.
Just walk away. You gain nothing nor do you learn anything. Just let go. You have what you wanted. Now leave me be.
Today was the final straw. I await my declaration. I have decided many things but all with Jehovah. Lots of changes on my end. I no longer care what you think of me. Today has just been that rude awakening that I thought was over long ago.
The mind says just walk away. Just whatever is decided let that be the first day of my life. I have lost so much but I know I was willing to give it all up, just for that one time. Yet after hearing what I heard today, I will never have been there. I wasn't even in the runnings.
I was the crazy lady. Yeah. I exhale a sigh. The body is burning and the spirit is trying to find the wings once more. This is the last spell you cast. Oh I don't believe in magic but I have to listen that you are a sorcerer. You bind so much with charm and lies that some are willing to do anything for you.
Well just mark me off. I have died enough inside today to last me a lifetime. The strength I saved up for my announcement are gone. I live each moment as my last.
My ears are ringing from the numerous things that were said. I really don't even know if anything we had even as friendship was true or if you planned from day one. Still none of that matters anymore. I just await the decision that helps me grow.
I have heard so much that my mind shuts down. I just sit here typing away without the notice of words. Whatever I say here is just rambles and somehow they make sense. So just stop listening to me. I won't change you and I certainly won't be influencing anything you think.
I can't see how what I say is anything. Yet you are so curious. Its sad.
Leap. Fly. Get away. You have no means to read my work anymore. I mean nothing. So leave my pages alone.
Though something in you want to know how I am doing. So much of you wants to say something yet I think that I hit all of you on the tack in all my poems these last few days. So I can't image why the need to see more.
Just walk away. You gain nothing nor do you learn anything. Just let go. You have what you wanted. Now leave me be.
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