I have questions I know I will never get answers to

I won't sit here with questions I will never get answered. I know that whatever happens to me, you won't care. I just know that from here and out I can't afford to give anymore time to thinking of what you actually meant to me.

The day I go to sleep, fully I will be grateful. So when the council comes back for me, many of my decisions will have been put into play. I will have started new things and have gotten away from even wondering.

I still just will never understand if there was no fun or love for me why dangle me a precious treat? Why was a bother even there? Ah I will never know. Frankly I care not to know because it will just make me wish I had those connections still in the world.

Make me want to make some severe requests being my father's daughter. Yet I cannot. So I have to pick up all my broken pieces and go on. Yet nothing like that ever bothers you. Its is just another pawn off to catch the king or queen.

You find yourself laughing at the poetry or finding it is hurting you, no need to worry it was intentional. I meant for my words to hit you. Just as your actions towards me hit. Every fiber of me aches.

Its terrible how I let, I actually allowed and believed you were genuine. Oh how stupid I was for you. So stupid and that is what you liked. I get it.

Yet I wasn't that stupid. You were the idiot in thinking all that I had was you. Wrong. I lived without you for several years and I intend to do it forever, now.

I hope you fall rotten like that of old crab apples. Yes discarded and stepped on. Then for you to feel as I do, now that will be a treat.

Yet you won't get it because you are an emotionless man. Sorry state of what was something.