Jehovah help me be freed
Classic.
Run of the mill.
Holding out for a long ago dream. Today awakened by the full emptiness inside my head. A complete calm.
Too bad it doesn't last.
Now though I am just sitting. Trying to decrease all matter so I can fall back to sleep.
Thankful though for the kind reminder of the daily text today. All those for whom I have affection, I reprove and discipline.—Rev. 3:19.
Just shows no matter what I am loved. I know that helps make my faith stronger. It's hard but I can do this. Right. The correct way.
Still I await. Collecting the information I need to keep going. Knowing whatever is said I will HAVE to maintain myself. Sustain and pour into my life a lot more of Jehovah's words.
Meditation.
Focus.
Prayer.
A hope I need to feel again.
It's sad just how lost I am. With the car accident even more so. Yet Jehovah still wants me here.
That I must sink in. I can't understand the level of love like this. It just isn't what I am used to.
The key is to find exactly where I fit within Jehovah's organization. I know it maybe too late but I will have to start fresh.
This is my challenge. This is my goal. The gains I will achieve once I find myself. I really don't know how long it will take but I will find me. Complete inside with Jehovah.
The hardest part right now is walking in solitude. Yet I am not alone. I am grateful for the opportunity to tell my story. All of me. Scary as it is I will finally be happy with people knowing all parts of me. Not just pieces.
All those things I could not and won't tell my mom. Just parts that even today leave a decaying flavor in my mouth.
I suppose it will be just nice to be understood, even a little bit. If only for one time. Oh Jehovah please help me.
Run of the mill.
Holding out for a long ago dream. Today awakened by the full emptiness inside my head. A complete calm.
Too bad it doesn't last.
Now though I am just sitting. Trying to decrease all matter so I can fall back to sleep.
Thankful though for the kind reminder of the daily text today. All those for whom I have affection, I reprove and discipline.—Rev. 3:19.
Just shows no matter what I am loved. I know that helps make my faith stronger. It's hard but I can do this. Right. The correct way.
Still I await. Collecting the information I need to keep going. Knowing whatever is said I will HAVE to maintain myself. Sustain and pour into my life a lot more of Jehovah's words.
Meditation.
Focus.
Prayer.
A hope I need to feel again.
It's sad just how lost I am. With the car accident even more so. Yet Jehovah still wants me here.
That I must sink in. I can't understand the level of love like this. It just isn't what I am used to.
The key is to find exactly where I fit within Jehovah's organization. I know it maybe too late but I will have to start fresh.
This is my challenge. This is my goal. The gains I will achieve once I find myself. I really don't know how long it will take but I will find me. Complete inside with Jehovah.
The hardest part right now is walking in solitude. Yet I am not alone. I am grateful for the opportunity to tell my story. All of me. Scary as it is I will finally be happy with people knowing all parts of me. Not just pieces.
All those things I could not and won't tell my mom. Just parts that even today leave a decaying flavor in my mouth.
I suppose it will be just nice to be understood, even a little bit. If only for one time. Oh Jehovah please help me.
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