Issues of Red hair
To think that my red hair has anything to do with my temper I laugh. Constantly in the pursuit of peace and yet with so many I am angry. So many I want to throttle and I don't. I don't even say a word to them. So I laugh even harder when someone assumes that my fiery, copper compound on my head has any piece to do with what pushes me to the limits.
Did no one bother to believe that I am actually quiet the opposite in showing my temper. I even talk myself out of telling the people who have made me upset. I just don't want the silence they would give to me. Even more so to be labeled something I am not.
So sad that being a redhead can cause such misrepresentations. In fact would anyone take in note how many times I have tried to NOT be a redhead? Probably not. Several times.
Some times I just have to give up on trying to change that part of me. Yet I still do have some anger issues and yet most people have no clue that I am even upset. For one they can't read me well enough to notice the changes or they just don't care to note. Either way whatever is affecting me I just swallow it.
Many times I explain to people and make the object of the anger something different just so the situation does not lead them thinking that they are the issue in reality they are the main cause. Yet I am good and not explain in depth that they could reach in me that level. What right do they have for stirring anything inside of me? To them I am just a cold person.
So the bane of my existence is the fair skin, the red hair and the sensitivity I experience. Truly to rid of all three would be extreme kindness. For those who do color their hair to mine.. Please stop. It isn't an attractive color. If I chose a color I would NOT be this one. A nice auburn or honey brown seems downright delightful. Yet to strip my color from me, well that is a bit of taboo. It just causes vanity and I'd rather not be that way either.
So here again I am stuck. Red hair. Blue eyes. Fair skin. Freckles. Glasses. Hearing aids. Sensitivities.
Please come laugh with me over my troublesome parts of life. Not so bad, eh?
Did no one bother to believe that I am actually quiet the opposite in showing my temper. I even talk myself out of telling the people who have made me upset. I just don't want the silence they would give to me. Even more so to be labeled something I am not.
So sad that being a redhead can cause such misrepresentations. In fact would anyone take in note how many times I have tried to NOT be a redhead? Probably not. Several times.
Some times I just have to give up on trying to change that part of me. Yet I still do have some anger issues and yet most people have no clue that I am even upset. For one they can't read me well enough to notice the changes or they just don't care to note. Either way whatever is affecting me I just swallow it.
Many times I explain to people and make the object of the anger something different just so the situation does not lead them thinking that they are the issue in reality they are the main cause. Yet I am good and not explain in depth that they could reach in me that level. What right do they have for stirring anything inside of me? To them I am just a cold person.
So the bane of my existence is the fair skin, the red hair and the sensitivity I experience. Truly to rid of all three would be extreme kindness. For those who do color their hair to mine.. Please stop. It isn't an attractive color. If I chose a color I would NOT be this one. A nice auburn or honey brown seems downright delightful. Yet to strip my color from me, well that is a bit of taboo. It just causes vanity and I'd rather not be that way either.
So here again I am stuck. Red hair. Blue eyes. Fair skin. Freckles. Glasses. Hearing aids. Sensitivities.
Please come laugh with me over my troublesome parts of life. Not so bad, eh?
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