Finally shook free
Its like I want to tell all people stop connecting with me. I am better off without all people listening to me. Just to stop breathing once. Then reclaim the day.
No time to feel sorry for myself even though I want to drown. I see that I may be the only one people discontinue to speak and look at. Yet all the others the remain on lists. Funny how if the ridding of me was the greatest insult and shakedown that was needed.
All I can say is wow. And thank you for teaching me that I wasn't worth much. I understand that I was very annoying and made it difficult for the eyes and hands to find others. Well now the freedom is there.
No more is the wonder if Mary will say anything. No more is there a worry that I obtain jealousy. That was the whole thing right. I was just the blow-by. I get it now. I was convenient. If that is how I was seen well why?
I moved so much of my life for what? The holding hope of invisibility. Yeah. I see. Well don't think I am going to hold back. Its me and its knowledge. If I get asked I will answer what I know. Hatred and dislike of me will be held high.
That is fine. Clear a conscience on one person, no. It has to be clear on all accounts. So I won't be weighed down by all I know. No. No pictures. Its all words. But I will be clear once I walk out of that group session. I will be completely empty.
I am not out to hurt people and no revenge is mine. Jehovah just wants me to speak the truth. When asked I will. There can be no omitting for sake.
Its not about me. Its about those actions I chose. And I am honest I would again with no regrets. So maybe the suggestion I leave is good.
Nothing holds me back now. I have no reason to hide anymore. No reason to excel anymore. No reason to be anything but me. Struggling in life. Learning that no man, woman nor child is more important than me in spiritual growth.
Ah though I did think, hope. Though a fool. Thoughts of an idiot. It may be harsh but it is true.
Now I just have to stop talking to people. Forget about the past. Let go and erase the connections. Say my good byes. And hold myself tight as I walk out a free person. Standing again, on my own. Finding my way once more.
No time to feel sorry for myself even though I want to drown. I see that I may be the only one people discontinue to speak and look at. Yet all the others the remain on lists. Funny how if the ridding of me was the greatest insult and shakedown that was needed.
All I can say is wow. And thank you for teaching me that I wasn't worth much. I understand that I was very annoying and made it difficult for the eyes and hands to find others. Well now the freedom is there.
No more is the wonder if Mary will say anything. No more is there a worry that I obtain jealousy. That was the whole thing right. I was just the blow-by. I get it now. I was convenient. If that is how I was seen well why?
I moved so much of my life for what? The holding hope of invisibility. Yeah. I see. Well don't think I am going to hold back. Its me and its knowledge. If I get asked I will answer what I know. Hatred and dislike of me will be held high.
That is fine. Clear a conscience on one person, no. It has to be clear on all accounts. So I won't be weighed down by all I know. No. No pictures. Its all words. But I will be clear once I walk out of that group session. I will be completely empty.
I am not out to hurt people and no revenge is mine. Jehovah just wants me to speak the truth. When asked I will. There can be no omitting for sake.
Its not about me. Its about those actions I chose. And I am honest I would again with no regrets. So maybe the suggestion I leave is good.
Nothing holds me back now. I have no reason to hide anymore. No reason to excel anymore. No reason to be anything but me. Struggling in life. Learning that no man, woman nor child is more important than me in spiritual growth.
Ah though I did think, hope. Though a fool. Thoughts of an idiot. It may be harsh but it is true.
Now I just have to stop talking to people. Forget about the past. Let go and erase the connections. Say my good byes. And hold myself tight as I walk out a free person. Standing again, on my own. Finding my way once more.
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