Enough is enough
I guess when I get home I will throw out everything that I have. I won't even bother to look at it again. If you want to go dumpster diving, go right ahead.
All things that rattle, get watched and are used for twisting are either mine or tossed. I don't see the need to be reminded of what has been given. So the net, what do I do with it? I cannot be access, correct?
I will have to just throw that away too. I can't have anything that refers or connects. As I have seen the desire to eliminate all of me has been convinced. So I will toss and go to places I know I can find a connection. I don't need to be reminded of any part of you.
So how can I scrub my soul away? How about my mind? How can I slash the memories as easily as you do? You realize I am a woman, right?
And now I just have to finally rid of everything that speaks of me before. Once more. Another part of me that gets washed out.
How do you do it so well? How do you find yourself again, repeatedly? Perhaps I am just not seeing how repeats can happen that often. What is it you are really fighting? Ah. Everything that is inside of you.
I gave up fighting myself. I survived so much that I know how to dig myself back out and come out stronger. I don't think you can. I hope this next time things work out better for you. That life gives you what you need to move forward and not just with anyone or anything, but for you.
It irritates me to know that I was no use. I couldn't help someone once more. So now I must let go and focus on me. Become, maybe, too selfish. But it is time.
So read this and get ticked off at me. Read this and want to say something. I really don't care. I tire of caring for people and getting shafted because I care too deep. Enough.
Enough. Enough. Enough.
Yes I am throwing it all away. Learning to be free of everyone. Step by step.
All things that rattle, get watched and are used for twisting are either mine or tossed. I don't see the need to be reminded of what has been given. So the net, what do I do with it? I cannot be access, correct?
I will have to just throw that away too. I can't have anything that refers or connects. As I have seen the desire to eliminate all of me has been convinced. So I will toss and go to places I know I can find a connection. I don't need to be reminded of any part of you.
So how can I scrub my soul away? How about my mind? How can I slash the memories as easily as you do? You realize I am a woman, right?
And now I just have to finally rid of everything that speaks of me before. Once more. Another part of me that gets washed out.
How do you do it so well? How do you find yourself again, repeatedly? Perhaps I am just not seeing how repeats can happen that often. What is it you are really fighting? Ah. Everything that is inside of you.
I gave up fighting myself. I survived so much that I know how to dig myself back out and come out stronger. I don't think you can. I hope this next time things work out better for you. That life gives you what you need to move forward and not just with anyone or anything, but for you.
It irritates me to know that I was no use. I couldn't help someone once more. So now I must let go and focus on me. Become, maybe, too selfish. But it is time.
So read this and get ticked off at me. Read this and want to say something. I really don't care. I tire of caring for people and getting shafted because I care too deep. Enough.
Enough. Enough. Enough.
Yes I am throwing it all away. Learning to be free of everyone. Step by step.
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