End of morning trails
Dare I dream of all that sits inside my emotions? Dare I listen to them all as the need to get out demands more time?
No.
I just let them settle inside of me. I let the weirdness of who I am sugar coat the emotions so that I can just dismiss them. The need to let go. Surely I should just allow a few out. Yet I don't see the need to express any one thing anymore.
I am not numb nor empty. Just that the need isn't high. The parts of me can be found via painting or jewelry. It is just possible to let thing relax and disperse. Yes I do know how to do that.
The words I speak now are just words. No meaning. No intentions. Just a form of rambling until I make up my mind to tackle the day. A form of release, so to say. Letting the rambling disappear so that the plans, the goals I have set for the day can invade and uplift.
For sure these times are like this every day. Some are very slow and some even have me unclear, unmovable for hours. Yet when the inspiration or actions given I am capable of anything. Truly a wonderful time indeed.
Simple and understandable they are. Well at least to me. Otherwise they all may be confusing and complex to you. I assure you the jumbled mess in my mind is the perfect kind of clutter. I may ramble or get lost in my thoughts because my many files are opened. Don't get me wrong, I wander in my thoughts and my imagination but I am fully aware of the conversations at hand. I don't necessarily have to be really involved to understand the general concept of the point. I just have to hear the beginning and part of the end to draw the conclusion.
Truly a piece of me that sounds ADD and I have to laugh. Not in the jest of others who struggle with such disease but to those who assume such of me. I am just different in the aspect of being me. I can't expect people to understand me completely. And if there is one or two I am overjoyed with the aspect. To finally be able to let down my guard for those who WANT to know about me.
A blissful experience I linger over, indeed.
I sigh as I have realize that this line of thoughts have bored me. So I pray you did not become the same from this reading. It is now time to get in gear the goals of the day. So see you all soon, perhaps.
No.
I just let them settle inside of me. I let the weirdness of who I am sugar coat the emotions so that I can just dismiss them. The need to let go. Surely I should just allow a few out. Yet I don't see the need to express any one thing anymore.
I am not numb nor empty. Just that the need isn't high. The parts of me can be found via painting or jewelry. It is just possible to let thing relax and disperse. Yes I do know how to do that.
The words I speak now are just words. No meaning. No intentions. Just a form of rambling until I make up my mind to tackle the day. A form of release, so to say. Letting the rambling disappear so that the plans, the goals I have set for the day can invade and uplift.
For sure these times are like this every day. Some are very slow and some even have me unclear, unmovable for hours. Yet when the inspiration or actions given I am capable of anything. Truly a wonderful time indeed.
Simple and understandable they are. Well at least to me. Otherwise they all may be confusing and complex to you. I assure you the jumbled mess in my mind is the perfect kind of clutter. I may ramble or get lost in my thoughts because my many files are opened. Don't get me wrong, I wander in my thoughts and my imagination but I am fully aware of the conversations at hand. I don't necessarily have to be really involved to understand the general concept of the point. I just have to hear the beginning and part of the end to draw the conclusion.
Truly a piece of me that sounds ADD and I have to laugh. Not in the jest of others who struggle with such disease but to those who assume such of me. I am just different in the aspect of being me. I can't expect people to understand me completely. And if there is one or two I am overjoyed with the aspect. To finally be able to let down my guard for those who WANT to know about me.
A blissful experience I linger over, indeed.
I sigh as I have realize that this line of thoughts have bored me. So I pray you did not become the same from this reading. It is now time to get in gear the goals of the day. So see you all soon, perhaps.
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