A test

I am so thankful I have endurance. To be tested in a way such as today, truly the hardest thing to experience

Just the experience is likened to rape all over again. Each time it happens you feel more and more numb.

Soon the elimination of feeling is thorough. I just hope the effect is what you wanted there.

Placed so I could feel less and less like a person. Only. If

Whatever. Doesn't matter my experience to you. Only matters that I endured.

To watch the rushing, the fumbling. So childish. Then I realize I must be always an issue.

Well let's just erase me.

I stand by myself. You can join but I am not begging