Sometimes I just need you to nag
My eyes slip between slumber and dreams. I had such a turbulent day. Good news and bad mingled with the afternoon rays. Apparently I am no company to any one person today. I became weighed down by those thoughts and began to unravel in ways I didn't want to see again.
So now I beg myself to go to sleep early so the tears of the day can echo inside of my pillows. I pray that the strength I hope for will be with me when I rise before the sun opens the day. I hope I don't even begin to wonder about anything that will cause redness upon my face nor drowning into negativity.
I have had a darn hard day and I wanted to talk to people yet no one I could imagine wanted to hear me ramble. So I kept my lips closed and my fingers planted on research. Then I demanded myself to get dressed and walk fast to get exercise. The escape of the harshness I was holding and the neccesity to explode. Just listening to the music.
Forgetting I had people I could possibly talk to. I just relaxed into the music. Exercising and running so the escape could be felt.
Dare you ask the harshness of my day. Even at this moment I still am crying. Just a really emotional day and I am praying that the sighs are what hold me strong when more calls stream into my house. I cannot bear this weight but I do.
Not always are my issues about friends nor me. Sometimes just caring too much or carrying too much load for other family members causes me to break down. Yet who wants to listen to me "complain" about such burdens?
I daresay, none.
So yeah I bid you a good night because I want to tell you everything. I mean EVERYTHING like I used to. Yet I am compelled to stay extremely quiet.
So pardon the silence. Its better you pester, inquire and nag. I need less of this stress. Yet I won't just come out and say it. I can't burden someone else with my weights.
So now I beg myself to go to sleep early so the tears of the day can echo inside of my pillows. I pray that the strength I hope for will be with me when I rise before the sun opens the day. I hope I don't even begin to wonder about anything that will cause redness upon my face nor drowning into negativity.
I have had a darn hard day and I wanted to talk to people yet no one I could imagine wanted to hear me ramble. So I kept my lips closed and my fingers planted on research. Then I demanded myself to get dressed and walk fast to get exercise. The escape of the harshness I was holding and the neccesity to explode. Just listening to the music.
Forgetting I had people I could possibly talk to. I just relaxed into the music. Exercising and running so the escape could be felt.
Dare you ask the harshness of my day. Even at this moment I still am crying. Just a really emotional day and I am praying that the sighs are what hold me strong when more calls stream into my house. I cannot bear this weight but I do.
Not always are my issues about friends nor me. Sometimes just caring too much or carrying too much load for other family members causes me to break down. Yet who wants to listen to me "complain" about such burdens?
I daresay, none.
So yeah I bid you a good night because I want to tell you everything. I mean EVERYTHING like I used to. Yet I am compelled to stay extremely quiet.
So pardon the silence. Its better you pester, inquire and nag. I need less of this stress. Yet I won't just come out and say it. I can't burden someone else with my weights.
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