Imagine my mind

Imagine my mind for a moment.

Just once look to see how I am. Not crazy. Not a burden. Not off. Just wired differently . 

I never thought that what I said was going to leave me without friends. I never believed that my mind, my experiences would be used against me. Yet I did learn.

I learned to understand people are manipulating in forms. Which we each are in our ways. Just some have more practice than others.

Though I never expected my life would be used by another to gain pity or acceptance. Never would I have guessed that people would listen to it all and believe. 

So much can be said for those who listen. 

Yet so much of me felt sorrow for them. And those who stand still and say nothing. I only pray for goodness and love, finding of peace for them.

That is how my mind tells me to treat all. Yet my heart twists and turns. Demanding a form of vengance. 

Still I remain.

The ripples that still sway are deafening but somehow I am capable of hearing. I listen. 

Space is made. Bound to be a distance.

Travelling is what some are doing. Trying to find grounds.

To truly seek what is laying before them. I remain here. Hoping those who reach, find me. Yet I don't push anymore. You gotta want to find me or you don't . 

No need to get all my hopes up for possibilites. 

My mind is clear . I am not crazy. I am just different. Maybe that isn't what people want to hear but boundaries had to be made. I am worth it.

Unfortunate that some are lost in the search. All I can do is hope somewhere they find a connection and note all that is done is good. One day I hope they find who I am. That I am true, loyal. 

Yet I hold no breath and I don't stop my dreams, my goals for anyone anymore. When you learn your importance there is no going back.

If I lost you in the wilderness I hope you find a path to my door. I will welcome you.