How today looks
The morning arrives faster than I expected. Leaving me feeling exhausted and pulled. Yet I am still able to move and I am grateful to be awake. Ready for another day of adventures.
I yawn as I lean out into the cool air. Finding it to chill my core and cause uncontrollable shaking. A new way to absorb anything that will knock at my door. Alert and ready.
Still though I calm my senses and stinging nerves with a warm shower, not hot because my gauge for heat is off. But still a good warming over rattled nerves.
Slowly the tense muscles and throbbing nerves begin loosen and calm. This day will be a me day. Taking care of what is necessary to be vibrant tomorrow.
A soft sigh escapes my parched lips and I just pray. Pray for courage, for strength and for wisdom to understand my limitations, endurance and to just admit I am extremely weak today.
I used to get this need to not tell people just how weak I am because of the upbringing I had. Yet I no longer have to be afraid nor ashamed.
Today is just another day I take slower than the rest. I will continue in some parts of my routine but scaled back in a way. Not to over exhaust the body and extreme need of sleep for days.
Sometimes I get so frustrated with myself for not yet knowing all the quirks but part of learning in life is to learn by mistake or experience. Trial and error. For sure it is how I am today.
Some days I am down because I can't do all that I used to do. Then there are other days where I do all I did in my past and then some.. later realizing that it was a huge mistake.
So today I am mellow. Just absorbing the day of light and beauty in refined details. Hugs my friend.
I yawn as I lean out into the cool air. Finding it to chill my core and cause uncontrollable shaking. A new way to absorb anything that will knock at my door. Alert and ready.
Still though I calm my senses and stinging nerves with a warm shower, not hot because my gauge for heat is off. But still a good warming over rattled nerves.
Slowly the tense muscles and throbbing nerves begin loosen and calm. This day will be a me day. Taking care of what is necessary to be vibrant tomorrow.
A soft sigh escapes my parched lips and I just pray. Pray for courage, for strength and for wisdom to understand my limitations, endurance and to just admit I am extremely weak today.
I used to get this need to not tell people just how weak I am because of the upbringing I had. Yet I no longer have to be afraid nor ashamed.
Today is just another day I take slower than the rest. I will continue in some parts of my routine but scaled back in a way. Not to over exhaust the body and extreme need of sleep for days.
Sometimes I get so frustrated with myself for not yet knowing all the quirks but part of learning in life is to learn by mistake or experience. Trial and error. For sure it is how I am today.
Some days I am down because I can't do all that I used to do. Then there are other days where I do all I did in my past and then some.. later realizing that it was a huge mistake.
So today I am mellow. Just absorbing the day of light and beauty in refined details. Hugs my friend.
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