Not going to dwell

Just not going to be concerned with it. Already gaining a migraine because I so desperately want a hello. Yet I don't want to take first step.

So I will just be quiet and not fall into an anxiety moment or drag it out to be a day long issue.

If I was worth speaking to the voice wold have already been there. I understand that now.

Sometimes hard to believe I am just a once in a while person now. Gets hard to accept but being a woman like me I just have to accept it.

Can't go backwards. Only moving one way. Sadly to realize with so many I am not important any more.

Oh well. Time and patience heals a person.

I just have to keep going. With or without some. A bit of screaming whys echo but I can not remain stuck. I just shrug my shoulders and realize I have out stayed my welcome in their lives.

Hardest parts is when you worked so hard, so long to maintain and then watch it break away. Silently what can a person do but be angry at themselves and cry a bit. Still gotta keep head up and legs moving.

Just tears you up inside but it didn't matter then and it won't in future either so today you just have to maintain the steady pace of you, whatever that is.

And hope that one day when all is gone a glimmer of what was hits them. Still by then it won't bother you anymore.

A hope that they feel.

Right now all you can do is pray they continue to do well and life gives them happiness.

 Moving you all the pathway.