Indifference and quiet, all parts of me
Fell asleep in my meeting clothes. The materials so soft almost like a warm blanket. I made it a long nightgown. I slept with dreams of rain, of dancing and washing away all the moods I have been in.
Waking to an overcast day I decided to do my morning routine and then go back to bed. Just to enjoy the softness of the grayish rays of sun. Red dark strands lay on a plump green paisley pillow. Flashback of 70s found on my bed.
Second waking up has just made sighs. Needing to be expressed. I open my blinds a slight bit to feel whiteness in a hazy sky. So pretty, soft and welcoming. Seated in my pink office chair I look forward to the day unfolding.
The complete feeling of relaxation if I only stay in my room. Not wanting to venture out to see the rest of the rooms in the apartment. I don't want to tense up from stress. I just want to remain like this for the rest of the day. Sounds silly but with all that I have experienced in the last two day I think it is logical and safe.
This morning I was called to come into work for longer today. Most often times I would jump at the opportunity but not today. This complete calm I am in. I don't want to destroy it just yet. Selfish perhaps but I deserve to sit quietly. Completely in no overwhelming state and in silence.
So right now with my messy hair and all I am just grateful to be able to wake up this way. The peace Jehovah gave. The person that he gave to listen to the tip and parts of the iceberg that were weighing me. I am thankful. Grateful of the now peace, calm and indifference I am in. No emotions no moods just here. It is truly a good experience.
I lean back trying to run my fingers through the mass craziness of copper red hair, getting stuck I realize parts of the day must resume. One step at a time. Maybe a wave or a real hello from the one Jehovah gave to listen. Who knows.
Peaceful, blissful and quiet. All parts.
Waking to an overcast day I decided to do my morning routine and then go back to bed. Just to enjoy the softness of the grayish rays of sun. Red dark strands lay on a plump green paisley pillow. Flashback of 70s found on my bed.
Second waking up has just made sighs. Needing to be expressed. I open my blinds a slight bit to feel whiteness in a hazy sky. So pretty, soft and welcoming. Seated in my pink office chair I look forward to the day unfolding.
The complete feeling of relaxation if I only stay in my room. Not wanting to venture out to see the rest of the rooms in the apartment. I don't want to tense up from stress. I just want to remain like this for the rest of the day. Sounds silly but with all that I have experienced in the last two day I think it is logical and safe.
This morning I was called to come into work for longer today. Most often times I would jump at the opportunity but not today. This complete calm I am in. I don't want to destroy it just yet. Selfish perhaps but I deserve to sit quietly. Completely in no overwhelming state and in silence.
So right now with my messy hair and all I am just grateful to be able to wake up this way. The peace Jehovah gave. The person that he gave to listen to the tip and parts of the iceberg that were weighing me. I am thankful. Grateful of the now peace, calm and indifference I am in. No emotions no moods just here. It is truly a good experience.
I lean back trying to run my fingers through the mass craziness of copper red hair, getting stuck I realize parts of the day must resume. One step at a time. Maybe a wave or a real hello from the one Jehovah gave to listen. Who knows.
Peaceful, blissful and quiet. All parts.
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