Norm
Not sure that I will ever get back to where I want to be but that has to be okay. For I know I am not normal nor am I too bizarre. I am just fine with where I have landed.
Granted there are times I want to tell people so much about me but then I retract all of it because the question of will it be used against me. I have learned that there are a rare few I trust. And the trust is all on different levels. No two are the same.
Today is still odd. Going to maintain that eerie floating in the day as the "norm" of me. Yes I am better but still I am out there. Nothing felt but exhaustion. No means to want to do anything. Only desire is to text friends and sleep.
I understand that I must do the contacting now. I understand that it shows how important just small words from certain people are in my life. Yet I don't dare say more than necessary for chance that they leave off the whole day to silence.
I'd rather have silence than 2 words and me talking the rest of the day. So here is to me in silence for another day. For I am sure a good morning is well overdue. No pushing.
I won't say anything. And I can't let the emotions affect me. I must just forget and move on into the day. Yes its upsetting and hurtful but no means to the end. Just look up and hope.
Granted there are times I want to tell people so much about me but then I retract all of it because the question of will it be used against me. I have learned that there are a rare few I trust. And the trust is all on different levels. No two are the same.
Today is still odd. Going to maintain that eerie floating in the day as the "norm" of me. Yes I am better but still I am out there. Nothing felt but exhaustion. No means to want to do anything. Only desire is to text friends and sleep.
I understand that I must do the contacting now. I understand that it shows how important just small words from certain people are in my life. Yet I don't dare say more than necessary for chance that they leave off the whole day to silence.
I'd rather have silence than 2 words and me talking the rest of the day. So here is to me in silence for another day. For I am sure a good morning is well overdue. No pushing.
I won't say anything. And I can't let the emotions affect me. I must just forget and move on into the day. Yes its upsetting and hurtful but no means to the end. Just look up and hope.
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