Cycles to remain silent

Its sad when you fight yourself to want to say things to people but in the end you just end up remaining quiet because you realize it does nothing for the situation. As though your words would change nothing. Often times I do that or I pretend not to be angry with people.

To tell a person I am angry at them is senseless. Its better to walk away from the questions and cool down. By the time I am all finished the voice of reason is with me and the anger has subsided some. Just telling someone I am angry or that something they did made me feel inferior, proves nothing. I don't think it even helps them.

Only thing I get is that I am either insensitive or too sensitive. So if I am the problem then silence is best. Best to let it drown or float away.

I don't even bother anymore. I just am tired of seeing cycles in some things. Alas I cannot change a person. That is their want, their desire. And if they prefer to continue their cycles that has to be okay. Some times it hurts to watch but I say nothing.

What else can I do. If I voice something I will get so many questions and then I will be labeled something for JUST feeling something. So why even bother.

Somehow that is why the world is so cold. Hence probably why I got along so well in it. Yet I am not a part of it much anymore.

I am caught in the tight spot between two differences. In so many instances I am just told to remain quiet or move on. Yet in some things I am stuck. Only temporarily but I do get stuck.

I strive so hard not to let the actions of others help me remain stuck. Yet some times I end up inhaling all that is done. Its hard to block and remove myself when the cycles are there. I am bound to want to say something and yet, does anyone really want to hear me?

So here I am caught. Stuck between two places. Is it right for me to say something or is it something I must remain silent about. Cycles. I am just not sure if I want to be labeled crazy, insensitive, cold or too emotional for the actions I see and inhale.

So I suppose it is best to just let the cycles happen. If anyone wants to really know what angers me, be prepared. And no judgments, labels and silent oddity for you dared to inquire.