Come to realize I am lost
Ready for the new day to begin. Back on track to what is important. Just was lost in so many ways. All the thoughts of the past were assaulting me and I really didn't know how to deal with them. I was struggling against Jehovah. Telling him I could take care of it all.
Realizing I was the ignorant child, Jehovah gave me patience. Truly a remarkable thing. Especially when you sit down finally admitting defeat, letting your mind go to prayer. Unloading it all into Jehovah's hands. Truly a refreshing thing.
As much as I want to help others and the need is great, I must stop. I must look to my health in all aspects. I thought I was doing well but I now see that I was just "appearing" to be well. So now it is onto listening. It will be a slow process but I know Jehovah is going to put people in my way to help.
I look forward to moments where I can be helpful to people, unannounced. Not to be prepared. It will be good for me.
First step is research deeper and analyze my place with Jehovah. Look over the attacks I had in the past and see them as lesson to help me. Maybe one day even help others who need an outlook. But right now it is to take care of me and my relationship with Jehovah.
I know I will need to back down on some obligations but I know I can keep going forward again when the level is there. Sort of sad over the prospect of losing my privilege in a way but I know if I keep holding on I may harm myself in the long run. I can't afford to get lost again.
My relationship with Jehovah has to be stronger. Right now I know it is weak. I searched for Jehovah once and we built our friendship, relationship. So it is important I see where I am because at the moment I just am lost and weaning away. I don't want that anymore.
So my friends who follow me because of my love of Jehovah. I thank you. I need a deepen my love for my neighbors and really reach inside myself to correct areas that are odd.
Keep building your relationship with Jehovah. Keep seeking FIRST the kingdom because having Jehovah first really does make life easier.
Realizing I was the ignorant child, Jehovah gave me patience. Truly a remarkable thing. Especially when you sit down finally admitting defeat, letting your mind go to prayer. Unloading it all into Jehovah's hands. Truly a refreshing thing.
As much as I want to help others and the need is great, I must stop. I must look to my health in all aspects. I thought I was doing well but I now see that I was just "appearing" to be well. So now it is onto listening. It will be a slow process but I know Jehovah is going to put people in my way to help.
I look forward to moments where I can be helpful to people, unannounced. Not to be prepared. It will be good for me.
First step is research deeper and analyze my place with Jehovah. Look over the attacks I had in the past and see them as lesson to help me. Maybe one day even help others who need an outlook. But right now it is to take care of me and my relationship with Jehovah.
I know I will need to back down on some obligations but I know I can keep going forward again when the level is there. Sort of sad over the prospect of losing my privilege in a way but I know if I keep holding on I may harm myself in the long run. I can't afford to get lost again.
My relationship with Jehovah has to be stronger. Right now I know it is weak. I searched for Jehovah once and we built our friendship, relationship. So it is important I see where I am because at the moment I just am lost and weaning away. I don't want that anymore.
So my friends who follow me because of my love of Jehovah. I thank you. I need a deepen my love for my neighbors and really reach inside myself to correct areas that are odd.
Keep building your relationship with Jehovah. Keep seeking FIRST the kingdom because having Jehovah first really does make life easier.
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