Edges
A major substitution but a tea latte is tons better than coffee. Almost miss the chia goodness.
Settling in a good spot I have found and am enjoying solitude in all this bustling noise. Sometimes it is all you need to focus on reading or homework. Surprisingly many can't focus, too many distractions.
Yet here I am in a long forgotten location. Feeling real. Best feeling ever. How about you?
A tiny adventure before some major life changing decisions. Either way I have the best support system esbalished. I look forward to all they help me with especially becoming the Mary they once knew.
Isolation kills the spirit. When the spirit dies life isn't worth much. I was to the point. I had done all the drop offs. Slowly dying again. I couldn't continue.
I am so grateful people noticed the drastic changes. So much they were beginning to hate this new me. So grateful for the abrupt reality check.
It was a wave of emotions that showed immense frustrations from me. Sadly I know I won't be friends with some people later, yet it was - is a good thing because I wasn't just strangling me I was including them.
Such a hateful person. So selfish. Yet now on a different road of selfishness. The one where I get to fully extend my wings.
This is my thanks to you, for ridding yourself of toxic Mary. Otherwise I would never had learned this much about who I was.
I am in joy because not only did you set me free but you helped me see I was dying, and trying to take you with me. One day I hope forgiveness is there. But not yet. It's too soon and I am not healed yet.
This will be a long process but I hope you do see the changes. But don't look yet. You will see my disappointments and hints of pushing against the old me. That is never a pretty sight.
Still I am so grateful for the release. I needed this.
So here I sit in my place of smiles. Learning and beginning to love my solitude better, but in busy,crowded locations.
Settling in a good spot I have found and am enjoying solitude in all this bustling noise. Sometimes it is all you need to focus on reading or homework. Surprisingly many can't focus, too many distractions.
Yet here I am in a long forgotten location. Feeling real. Best feeling ever. How about you?
A tiny adventure before some major life changing decisions. Either way I have the best support system esbalished. I look forward to all they help me with especially becoming the Mary they once knew.
Isolation kills the spirit. When the spirit dies life isn't worth much. I was to the point. I had done all the drop offs. Slowly dying again. I couldn't continue.
I am so grateful people noticed the drastic changes. So much they were beginning to hate this new me. So grateful for the abrupt reality check.
It was a wave of emotions that showed immense frustrations from me. Sadly I know I won't be friends with some people later, yet it was - is a good thing because I wasn't just strangling me I was including them.
Such a hateful person. So selfish. Yet now on a different road of selfishness. The one where I get to fully extend my wings.
This is my thanks to you, for ridding yourself of toxic Mary. Otherwise I would never had learned this much about who I was.
I am in joy because not only did you set me free but you helped me see I was dying, and trying to take you with me. One day I hope forgiveness is there. But not yet. It's too soon and I am not healed yet.
This will be a long process but I hope you do see the changes. But don't look yet. You will see my disappointments and hints of pushing against the old me. That is never a pretty sight.
Still I am so grateful for the release. I needed this.
So here I sit in my place of smiles. Learning and beginning to love my solitude better, but in busy,crowded locations.
Comments
Post a Comment