I am from the world
The excitement of possibilities. Oh the mind wanders around. Soaring and laughing. So silly I know but I love the changes.
The expectations have changed. The new me is allowed to roar. So thankful that life tickles the spirit with tiny giggles.
I aim to fight for me. Fight for my home in Jehovah's eyes. Determination.
I can't expect anyone to understand. Especially my family, because they all say now I can be real again. I never have to go back.
Yet I hope to go back. Though I can't see it anytime soon but I am holding Jehovah near to my heart.
It is all I can do and I continue to strive to keep him there amongst all the opposition I am facing.
See some people have never lived in the world. Always thought it was fascinating but never lived there because of family or significant others. Yet I came from the world. I know how to survive here, amongst the hatred and the cruelty.
I grew up in it. So if people think I am naive they got another thing coming. My world was cruel and I survived. My day to day lived with knives under my pillow and in between my mattress and boxsprings. No I can survive.
I feel sorry for those who never truly experienced the world. Never really got the taste of it. And now, now they are.
Yeah right now every thing is peachy. Life is floating by with things you always wanted, things that you always wanted to do. Yeah peachy for now.
Wait.
I hope you never experience what I went through daily. I hope that life continue to treat you peachy. For I hope you never get hit with the cruelty and hatred.
So I will be okay out here. Staying focused now I don't have some people involved in my life anymore. No need to wonder if I was good enough either.
In the world I am.
And my family I am. So I soar. I sing. I dance. I laugh. I hope.
That is me. I survived the world before and found this safe haven. Now I am back out in the world. I will find my way back to my safe haven.
As for others, well I hope they see that the world isn't to their liking either. I hope to see them in Paradise. But if not, I won't cry.
So just ponder over my experience in the world. See how I survived. Do you think you could endure what I did?
The expectations have changed. The new me is allowed to roar. So thankful that life tickles the spirit with tiny giggles.
I aim to fight for me. Fight for my home in Jehovah's eyes. Determination.
I can't expect anyone to understand. Especially my family, because they all say now I can be real again. I never have to go back.
Yet I hope to go back. Though I can't see it anytime soon but I am holding Jehovah near to my heart.
It is all I can do and I continue to strive to keep him there amongst all the opposition I am facing.
See some people have never lived in the world. Always thought it was fascinating but never lived there because of family or significant others. Yet I came from the world. I know how to survive here, amongst the hatred and the cruelty.
I grew up in it. So if people think I am naive they got another thing coming. My world was cruel and I survived. My day to day lived with knives under my pillow and in between my mattress and boxsprings. No I can survive.
I feel sorry for those who never truly experienced the world. Never really got the taste of it. And now, now they are.
Yeah right now every thing is peachy. Life is floating by with things you always wanted, things that you always wanted to do. Yeah peachy for now.
Wait.
I hope you never experience what I went through daily. I hope that life continue to treat you peachy. For I hope you never get hit with the cruelty and hatred.
So I will be okay out here. Staying focused now I don't have some people involved in my life anymore. No need to wonder if I was good enough either.
In the world I am.
And my family I am. So I soar. I sing. I dance. I laugh. I hope.
That is me. I survived the world before and found this safe haven. Now I am back out in the world. I will find my way back to my safe haven.
As for others, well I hope they see that the world isn't to their liking either. I hope to see them in Paradise. But if not, I won't cry.
So just ponder over my experience in the world. See how I survived. Do you think you could endure what I did?
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