First steps

First steps to clean myself is to rid of all excess things I do not need. Then it is focus on studies and research.

Finally to enroll in finishing that much needed degree. On my way to finding myself.

I know Jehovah showed me several things yesterday. And all things needing to be announced will happen next week.

Still I had thought not to be there but I learned that I only hurt myself if I keep staying away. It benefits only Satan if I walk away.

I mean my family says to do that. Go. Go live your life. And yet I can't let go what is true.

I just know there will be things I cannot do. I have no means but that is okay. There are other forms of staying on the path.

Changing life around is going to be tiresome but I know I can do it. Each day I will have rough spots and really down moments but I have survived before and I continue onward.

Still a bit scary but I did wrong so I must pay.

But now I think a quick nap to shut down my mind. For an hour or so. Then movement is necessary.  I cannot dwell on the past.

Keeping my head up and still going.