My prayer

I pleaded with Jehovah one last time before he stops hearing my prayers, where to start new. I know what my mind says and what my heart feels.

Yet I also understand today isn't the day. Yet when I am ready, I will know where to begin again.

The calm I feel. The hope.

Indeed I have many pieces of correction I need to do before I even begin. So many people are hoping for a quick turnaround but I don't see that. I see next year.

But I have no clue what Jehovah has planned. I can always maintain me. In fact the only thing I can do.

For now that has to be good enough. I still struggle to absorb the bible but I see what people mean when you voice it. It actually gives life to the meaning.

I began today. I didn't think today would be Jehovah's choice but I am not going to argue with him anymore.

I have learn not to do that because Jehovah as my parent is pretty insistant. Don't argue with someone who has great power. Just listen.

As I am. Still learning where I belong in his house but that is how I will apply myself. This is a new beginning.

Albeit a slow one. But tiny steps soon lean into leaps. So slow it is, I go.