Songs that roll in my head at 2am
In the movie American Mall there is this amazing song called dreaming wide awake. It rolls over and over into my mind. Just as the songs from Camp called the century plant and here's where I stand. They all help push me forward.
They play in my mind. Just old parts of years gone. It's kindness like toy soldiers by marika, somebody by depeche mode or even voices carry by til tuesday. Just songs that bring me strength.
I can't expect you to understand bits and pieces of me. I sigh. I hope one day you do. Not today and not next month. Just one day in your years gone by.
I realize at this moment I should be sound asleep but lately I don't sleep much. I do recall one thung that used to help but alas it won't work anymore.
I gave up thinking I would be calm in that aspet of life. Sleep comes and goes just like the breeze in the night. Softly comes and quickly goes.
Most often I lay or even sit in bed hoping I go to sleep but I end up remaining with eyes wide open.
Takes time and soon I will be moving along. Yet seated here in a dark room does nothing for me anymore.
So hoping listening to the songs will tire me enough for 2 hours of sleep. Just for a nine hour day. It is a strong hope. But I am unclear how I will move today at work.
Alas I don't worry over it now. I just hope for now an hour half. A hope for a nap. Indeed.
Onward. More songs. Maybe toy soldiers again. Or even Evanescence anything but I love good enough the best. The piano scene.. yeah I like that part and can sing that part too. Granted my voice is horrid.
Lol
Today, this morning I danced. It was good.
Now off to see if my eyes close for those few precious minutes.
Ticking away.
They play in my mind. Just old parts of years gone. It's kindness like toy soldiers by marika, somebody by depeche mode or even voices carry by til tuesday. Just songs that bring me strength.
I can't expect you to understand bits and pieces of me. I sigh. I hope one day you do. Not today and not next month. Just one day in your years gone by.
I realize at this moment I should be sound asleep but lately I don't sleep much. I do recall one thung that used to help but alas it won't work anymore.
I gave up thinking I would be calm in that aspet of life. Sleep comes and goes just like the breeze in the night. Softly comes and quickly goes.
Most often I lay or even sit in bed hoping I go to sleep but I end up remaining with eyes wide open.
Takes time and soon I will be moving along. Yet seated here in a dark room does nothing for me anymore.
So hoping listening to the songs will tire me enough for 2 hours of sleep. Just for a nine hour day. It is a strong hope. But I am unclear how I will move today at work.
Alas I don't worry over it now. I just hope for now an hour half. A hope for a nap. Indeed.
Onward. More songs. Maybe toy soldiers again. Or even Evanescence anything but I love good enough the best. The piano scene.. yeah I like that part and can sing that part too. Granted my voice is horrid.
Lol
Today, this morning I danced. It was good.
Now off to see if my eyes close for those few precious minutes.
Ticking away.
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