My true self emerges
I get weary playing the game of talk, don't talk. I guess it is now the time to just let go.
So much of me is stressed out. Raging temps, vomiting spells and severely fatigued. Indeed I need to be out of this and going forward. So one more week.
Already school has started. The need to stay busy. To keep leaping forward in my dream of graphics. So long on hold.
Yes my inner nerd finally can come back out. No need to hide that I know formulas and web design any longer. This trial of being this type of woman someone wants is over.
Thanking Jehovah for letting me go. Even soaring in my pearls program too. Soon glassblowing and basket weaving will be allowed back into my life. This time I will have the patience to build and make.
Funny how when you try so hard for so long to fit in it just seems "fitting" that you accept you can never really fit in. Truly a rewarding bonus.
So yeah my need for constant development of formulas and hypothesis is unbound. I am so happy.
Yes. Sad but happy.
So much of me is stressed out. Raging temps, vomiting spells and severely fatigued. Indeed I need to be out of this and going forward. So one more week.
Already school has started. The need to stay busy. To keep leaping forward in my dream of graphics. So long on hold.
Yes my inner nerd finally can come back out. No need to hide that I know formulas and web design any longer. This trial of being this type of woman someone wants is over.
Thanking Jehovah for letting me go. Even soaring in my pearls program too. Soon glassblowing and basket weaving will be allowed back into my life. This time I will have the patience to build and make.
Funny how when you try so hard for so long to fit in it just seems "fitting" that you accept you can never really fit in. Truly a rewarding bonus.
So yeah my need for constant development of formulas and hypothesis is unbound. I am so happy.
Yes. Sad but happy.
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