Change

The significance of change is that you turn yourself away from what you used to be. Imagine that is what I did for hopes of love. Yet now I know what love is I won't claim to have the focused life in it.

I know I just try to rebuild me. I know it is goin to take me a while and I understand that greatly.  I don't expect anyone to understand that.

I expect nothing of people.  Just hope the people that actually know me will support me.

For I come back into the world where I met you. So I have to learn to go back. One day. Not today and not this year.

My life has spun out of control and I am grateful in process of getting it back.

As for people who like to believe I was with women or even got together with them, nope. I maintained my hate for women. Sorry.

Yes I was a dominatrix in my past but that was my past. Never did I do thing with women. I trained them. But nothing more.

Sure I can see how talk can make one gossip. It's truly interesting how much people knew nothing of me.

Had you know my loathing of women you would have known my jokes.

But yeah no one knows my sense of humor. Hence why I was not good for people. I am a silent one.

Best kept in darkness than looking at the light. Because the light seen in men and people in general dissect your spirit.

Truly interesting just how much I am a people pleasing introvert.

I tried. I failed.

Now I live life as I was before. Quietly. With true friends.