Linger

To think I was the bad seed. The one that tried to contact your new flame. Oh not I. I knew about her yes.

In fact you called me a stalker over looking at her instagram but I know the other jw girl called her workplace.

Inquired on her location and wanted to talk to her. Funny that you are possibly still friends with her makes me laugh.

But it must be love. Yet there is nothing I can say that would change your mind on her. I am sorry you are made for each other.

Cautious I walk around everyone tonight. Shining my best but tomorrow my announcement will be made. I will have said all my goodbyes.

And I walk away from everyone in November, December. Never looking back. This part of my life is over.

Funny how Jehovah used you to bring me into his organization.  And yet I lingered and found him.  Even more so how I allowed you back into my life.

Defined as good and a bad mistake. But I have learned greatly. And I know where I will be in a year. Where will you be?

Lingering?

Enough I have done and no one listened. I have tried. And now I am finished.

Linger if you must but be weary of those whom you think you know. Vipers lay low until they can strike.

Be warned.

Try to be happy.

I will alway's be crazy to you but that is because you never understood me.