Funny how you..

Got my day going right today. I had a great morning and saw the wonderful changes happening at work. The short hours still were pressed hard because non stop for 5 hours. Kept moving right along except for the moments when coworkers were asking questions.

I made progress.

Today I finished a tiny walk. The stretch and get myself back onto where I need to be. Still haven't made it to the pool yet and don't think it will happen until Saturday or Sunday. One of those days I have semi off.

No need for rushing today. Just absorbing the painting now. Need to find a way to finish or complete the frame. Yet I still am not in a rush. I just glance and keep going. If I don't like it, just paint over it.

I sigh. Enjoying the cold refreshment of an energy drink. The attempt to stay awake is slowly dwindling down to a no. My eyes are still kind of tire from yesterday even though I slept well.  Just exhaustion but I am grateful for a forty five hour week. Nice pay to have.

Then later an uplifting night. Not considering anyone else there but what is good for me. So even those old friends of mine, I hope only they gain what they need to press onward into the day or week. As for me right now I am just listening. Not really absorbing. Not ready to do that yet.

I have to learn my place once more. If I had a place. Otherwise I am just a person there, enjoying the comments and the familiar faces. Even though no one speaks to me anymore.

I just know going is good.

Yet some days it is the push that God does to make me go. Interesting how he knows exactly what I need when I don't want to acknowledge that I need it.

Funny I thought of all those things I used to need. Come to realize I was the grabby person. I really didn't need friendships. Nor anyone to love.

Funny how you learn from hindsight.

Indeed