No pursuits just preparation
Finally my headache is gone. A little twinge in my ears but I am so enjoying the prospect of getting lay out in the sun. Oh how stupid it sounds but the idea of just absorbing sunlight, even for the off chance of a shower, I still call that a win win situation.
I smile to know that I will love just placing myself on a towel and down to a suit that screams the new me. I am going to soak in the bliss of being free of simple people. Just the sense of peace and calm to not have overbearing people attempting to correct every part of my life.
I changes SO MUCH and yet no one saw anything. They couldn't look beyond the past. Only suitable that I am going back to pieces of me before the induction. Still I have to say there were some benefits and some goodness I will keep with me.
I just know I learned what I don't want to be. Though now people, of those from then will try to disrupt the now. Just leave me be. I washed my hands of ever striving to please. I know my mind, I know the battle of my heart. I know me enough to understand that I can make huge, damaging mistakes but not fall to the ways I used to be.
Many should rejoice that I at least changed for the good, in aspects.
So off this subject and onto the releasing of this new Mary. I can't expect anyone will like the changes but I am not out for anyone's approval. Not even sorry for ruffling feathers. For I am sure they needed to be back stroked.
So here I am preparing for the simple day. Going for the bit of boldness but not pursuing any people. Just my happiness and if you want to join in, that is fine.
I smile to know that I will love just placing myself on a towel and down to a suit that screams the new me. I am going to soak in the bliss of being free of simple people. Just the sense of peace and calm to not have overbearing people attempting to correct every part of my life.
I changes SO MUCH and yet no one saw anything. They couldn't look beyond the past. Only suitable that I am going back to pieces of me before the induction. Still I have to say there were some benefits and some goodness I will keep with me.
I just know I learned what I don't want to be. Though now people, of those from then will try to disrupt the now. Just leave me be. I washed my hands of ever striving to please. I know my mind, I know the battle of my heart. I know me enough to understand that I can make huge, damaging mistakes but not fall to the ways I used to be.
Many should rejoice that I at least changed for the good, in aspects.
So off this subject and onto the releasing of this new Mary. I can't expect anyone will like the changes but I am not out for anyone's approval. Not even sorry for ruffling feathers. For I am sure they needed to be back stroked.
So here I am preparing for the simple day. Going for the bit of boldness but not pursuing any people. Just my happiness and if you want to join in, that is fine.
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