Honesty is key
Even though I was not disappointed I still was a little miffed but I had not expectations of anything except to absorb the sunlight and enjoy the company of the water, the wind and the hot rays of light. Yet. Nope. Not going to let it get to me.
I have plenty of reasons to not be anything but joyous. I never expected and surprise I got when liquid greens can entertain me under slightly closed lids. Even for a short bit time in a span of a lifetime.
I have no worries about it. Just carefree. Grateful. Then to just be nonchalant about everything. Some days it is hard to do. Especially today. But not so much anymore. Not battling against hateful people. I am fighting for my friendships and love Jehovah. Yet I don't need to prove a point to anyone.
I tried to do that but like all churches they all stick together when prominence is there. Its a sad cycle that no church or congregation can over ride. It still runs thick wherever you are.
I am safe to say that I never conformed to my Grandmother's church why would I place myself in a death bed of vipers in this congregation. I have no means for it. And to constantly have them assault me with nasty snide remarks. Naw. I don't need to be subjected to that.
Not saying I ran away from Jehovah. NO. Still have him everyday. I talk to him about everything. And every step I take is because I waited for his answers.
So yeah normally I would have been very upset because I didn't get what I wanted, seeing the attractions of people. But I am not going to complain because I got to see a lizard, a few bumble bees, some birds and flowers. Plus I got to talk to a mom and her baby. I think I had a grand time out.
Tomorrow won't have time but Thursday, Friday, Saturday and sunday. All mine. I might go on an adventure Friday weather permitting so I will see. I hope.
So here is to you friend. I hope that whatever cause the abruptness that you get a moment of peace before tonight's meeting. I hope that you remain strong. And don't do it just because you want to be spiteful. That is downright wrong to yourself. At that sinking to their level.
Its better to be at peace with yourself and maintain some sort of reality and honesty. Instead of trying to match people who are already trying to bring you down. Remember those who are trying to do that, are already below you. Just remember that next time you feel the need to be equal in their stance.
They win when you do that. Just an FYI.
Being honest with ourselves is the key.
I have plenty of reasons to not be anything but joyous. I never expected and surprise I got when liquid greens can entertain me under slightly closed lids. Even for a short bit time in a span of a lifetime.
I have no worries about it. Just carefree. Grateful. Then to just be nonchalant about everything. Some days it is hard to do. Especially today. But not so much anymore. Not battling against hateful people. I am fighting for my friendships and love Jehovah. Yet I don't need to prove a point to anyone.
I tried to do that but like all churches they all stick together when prominence is there. Its a sad cycle that no church or congregation can over ride. It still runs thick wherever you are.
I am safe to say that I never conformed to my Grandmother's church why would I place myself in a death bed of vipers in this congregation. I have no means for it. And to constantly have them assault me with nasty snide remarks. Naw. I don't need to be subjected to that.
Not saying I ran away from Jehovah. NO. Still have him everyday. I talk to him about everything. And every step I take is because I waited for his answers.
So yeah normally I would have been very upset because I didn't get what I wanted, seeing the attractions of people. But I am not going to complain because I got to see a lizard, a few bumble bees, some birds and flowers. Plus I got to talk to a mom and her baby. I think I had a grand time out.
Tomorrow won't have time but Thursday, Friday, Saturday and sunday. All mine. I might go on an adventure Friday weather permitting so I will see. I hope.
So here is to you friend. I hope that whatever cause the abruptness that you get a moment of peace before tonight's meeting. I hope that you remain strong. And don't do it just because you want to be spiteful. That is downright wrong to yourself. At that sinking to their level.
Its better to be at peace with yourself and maintain some sort of reality and honesty. Instead of trying to match people who are already trying to bring you down. Remember those who are trying to do that, are already below you. Just remember that next time you feel the need to be equal in their stance.
They win when you do that. Just an FYI.
Being honest with ourselves is the key.
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