Search to have nature
In the latest hour the light unfolds the the world is cluttered with sunlight and dancing clouds. The morning begins and people race to reach a destination they probably don't like. Even more so are those escaping from a long night of constant droning of the words and people.
Unless the day brings a smile to their faces the routine takes root and causes a complaint inside their mind. The hopes of freedom and vacations. Long lists to stay focused on only to work harder to get to location. And still the rollover is not enough because as soon as they have relax they are back to the rulings of their minds.
The days of constant waging a war within. Do I do this, what does this help me to do, how does this leave me less stress and can I use extended credit to save some money. Just a few thoughts that run through the mind in orderly fashion or random tangents.
Ever really feel like the circle doesn't end? As though the push for that next big electronic really isn't necessary? Or even the hope to make more money so less time at work? I even have said these things to myself.
I really don't know what it is like not to live paycheck to paycheck. Even more so live one paycheck a month. Yet I do. The series of questions I hold upon my mind are real.
Sure there are days I would love to go to the movies instead of waiting for it to come to redbox. Even would love to go out to dinner and not have to wonder if I could have used the money elsewhere. Or even if that splurge of seven dollars on a skirt was going to be well spent, that I will wear the skirt to its death.
Sure I may never again know what it is like to shop at a mall without have 2 jobs, have the nod to just pick up and go, much less the ability to go wherever I want when I want with no one to think of. But with all those negatives or failures, as some may say, the experience trains me well.
Trains the mind that really necessity has been taken care of. The sights to see are that of nature. The photographs in motion are how the butterfly dances along the path with you, the spider jumps from one leaf to the next or even how the rain tickles the rooftops and windows. Sometimes the need for money, the need for something other than what is given, kills us inside. We become unappreciative of the simple things in life.
Indeed I may be poor in the standards of money and privilege. Yet I am rich beyond compare for the freedom I hold. The movies of real life I get to see. Not always because I want too but because I have to seek them to be a part of my life. For my calm to be inside of me I have to seek these wonders.
It may seem stupid to many but have you ever wondered why so many people are dying to get to the next destination only to turn around and go for the dying again?
Why not break the cycle? As many people would call it - live off the grid. Yet really not. Just downscale big time. Learn to appreciate the finer, freer things given right before your eyes.
Ever want that chance, that change to happen?
I know my circumstances give me more opportunity to appreciate the grand things but also the tiny pieces of life. I understand I get looked down upon but, I too, am in a form of the rat race of the circle but I am closer to the outside than that of the accepting center. I know I always have been.
I am okay with the ostracizing I get. Even the downcast look. Furthermore the snotty attacks at my person because I do not live in someone else's standards. But I can tell you one thing, I am happier than they are once you strip off all the big labels and take away all the gadgets. I can be calm and peaceful without all the rage.
So could you?
I have never really had the "finer" things that this world has to offer. For that experience in life humbles me to the greatest. Sure I used to shop at malls, grand department stores but once I realized all their stuff is made in the same place but in different countries I didn't see the point in spending the money in "name brand" places when I could find a later style, classic at a thrift store. So call me a lower cast for doing that. I would just call myself smart.
As for having more than one paycheck a month, that would be amazing. I could actually pay my bills on time. I could actually splurge on a book or some paints. Yet I am not going to drag myself down. When a moment comes like that, I am blessed. Yet for now I remain without a credit card to my name. Whatever I own, I own outright. And the only downfall to much of my bill situation is the no confirmed diagnosis to illness and the stacking medical bills.
Yet that still doesn't bring me down. Every day is a struggle but the experience of life is thriving. Every part of my day I have to make sure I search for the positive in such a dark world. I have to maintain a bit of joy inside of me, to make sure I am happy.
So what if the lastest movie I saw was the deer crossing in front of me and the rain pouring down on the window. To me that is better than an action packed movie anyday.
So ever thought to just stop one day, to watch the ants parade in front of you? How about watching, intensely, the squirrels races and chatter to the birds? I know it seems tedious and almost too simple or stupid but ever just relax and watch?
Try it just one day. By yourself. No gadgets save your phone for photos. Turn your ringer on silent and just let the day go by in nature. Enjoy.
Unless the day brings a smile to their faces the routine takes root and causes a complaint inside their mind. The hopes of freedom and vacations. Long lists to stay focused on only to work harder to get to location. And still the rollover is not enough because as soon as they have relax they are back to the rulings of their minds.
The days of constant waging a war within. Do I do this, what does this help me to do, how does this leave me less stress and can I use extended credit to save some money. Just a few thoughts that run through the mind in orderly fashion or random tangents.
Ever really feel like the circle doesn't end? As though the push for that next big electronic really isn't necessary? Or even the hope to make more money so less time at work? I even have said these things to myself.
I really don't know what it is like not to live paycheck to paycheck. Even more so live one paycheck a month. Yet I do. The series of questions I hold upon my mind are real.
Sure there are days I would love to go to the movies instead of waiting for it to come to redbox. Even would love to go out to dinner and not have to wonder if I could have used the money elsewhere. Or even if that splurge of seven dollars on a skirt was going to be well spent, that I will wear the skirt to its death.
Sure I may never again know what it is like to shop at a mall without have 2 jobs, have the nod to just pick up and go, much less the ability to go wherever I want when I want with no one to think of. But with all those negatives or failures, as some may say, the experience trains me well.
Trains the mind that really necessity has been taken care of. The sights to see are that of nature. The photographs in motion are how the butterfly dances along the path with you, the spider jumps from one leaf to the next or even how the rain tickles the rooftops and windows. Sometimes the need for money, the need for something other than what is given, kills us inside. We become unappreciative of the simple things in life.
Indeed I may be poor in the standards of money and privilege. Yet I am rich beyond compare for the freedom I hold. The movies of real life I get to see. Not always because I want too but because I have to seek them to be a part of my life. For my calm to be inside of me I have to seek these wonders.
It may seem stupid to many but have you ever wondered why so many people are dying to get to the next destination only to turn around and go for the dying again?
Why not break the cycle? As many people would call it - live off the grid. Yet really not. Just downscale big time. Learn to appreciate the finer, freer things given right before your eyes.
Ever want that chance, that change to happen?
I know my circumstances give me more opportunity to appreciate the grand things but also the tiny pieces of life. I understand I get looked down upon but, I too, am in a form of the rat race of the circle but I am closer to the outside than that of the accepting center. I know I always have been.
I am okay with the ostracizing I get. Even the downcast look. Furthermore the snotty attacks at my person because I do not live in someone else's standards. But I can tell you one thing, I am happier than they are once you strip off all the big labels and take away all the gadgets. I can be calm and peaceful without all the rage.
So could you?
I have never really had the "finer" things that this world has to offer. For that experience in life humbles me to the greatest. Sure I used to shop at malls, grand department stores but once I realized all their stuff is made in the same place but in different countries I didn't see the point in spending the money in "name brand" places when I could find a later style, classic at a thrift store. So call me a lower cast for doing that. I would just call myself smart.
As for having more than one paycheck a month, that would be amazing. I could actually pay my bills on time. I could actually splurge on a book or some paints. Yet I am not going to drag myself down. When a moment comes like that, I am blessed. Yet for now I remain without a credit card to my name. Whatever I own, I own outright. And the only downfall to much of my bill situation is the no confirmed diagnosis to illness and the stacking medical bills.
Yet that still doesn't bring me down. Every day is a struggle but the experience of life is thriving. Every part of my day I have to make sure I search for the positive in such a dark world. I have to maintain a bit of joy inside of me, to make sure I am happy.
So what if the lastest movie I saw was the deer crossing in front of me and the rain pouring down on the window. To me that is better than an action packed movie anyday.
So ever thought to just stop one day, to watch the ants parade in front of you? How about watching, intensely, the squirrels races and chatter to the birds? I know it seems tedious and almost too simple or stupid but ever just relax and watch?
Try it just one day. By yourself. No gadgets save your phone for photos. Turn your ringer on silent and just let the day go by in nature. Enjoy.
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