To the ends of Florida
It has been a wild ride today. The talk and the people. Just so much I would like to say but still I remain quiet. I realize that there is nothing I can really say but just be prepared for the life of vicious almost divinely devilish people to attack you. Thinking that they are perfect.
Seriously we are all so far from the example of perfection that even when we strive to be "Christ" like we even fail at that. Because we are human we judge. Even when there is scriptures given, as though to soothe the mind. No.
Only regret I have is that I lost the best friend of my life. Yet there is no turning back. There is no way I can regain any goodness in it. I will never be able to talk nor see. So I have to stick with who I am now.
Just this redhead chick with so much baggage. A chick that is in a way, running from the situation. Yet I have learned a new start is always a good way to build one self back. Finding that internal peace that was broken.
Sure I will read the bible and stay connected to Jehovah, God but people, well I don't know.
I wrote and blocked so many people and yet still you read, you watch and you get involved. Its sad that I am looking out for other people's interests before my own. As I have always, in some sort of weird way. That defines me.
I sigh with this mess. I am ready to shove it off to the ends of Florida into the ocean. Letting the sharks and sea life disperse the evidence. Truly I wash my hands of those people, the vicious ones who play their catty, innocent games. I will be patient for God to open your lies up wide. I am thankful I won't be there to see the rulings given.
So good bye to those who knew the Jehovah's witness Mary. I was docile and played along with all the peoples issues and lies. Now the real Mary is here. Sorry if you don't want to hear that, but I was tired of the charade and the faceted hellos and sweet words. Its over.
Jehovah knows my heart. He will find me again if I am what he wants.
I can't pretend to be out for the interests of others when they were never interested in mine. So call me cold but at least I am real.
As for the women who played roles you will get your just dues. Jehovah sees all that you do. So don't try to play coy. Those who play with the devil will be found out soon enough. But I won't be there to watch because I don't seek revenge. That is Jehovah's joy.
So dear friend of mine, if I may call you that. Look out. Lots of stuff is going to hit the fan. I won't be there. I quit. Yes I quit. Walked away. I just hope if that is what you want, you remain strong. For I admit I am weak. I am wary of the those who act Christlike but are snakes and wolves.
So be careful.
I walked away. I hope you make it. Whatever your decisions are. But make sure it isn't a "forced" choice as mine was.
Good day. I hope that enjoyment is found somewhere, in this sunny day.
Seriously we are all so far from the example of perfection that even when we strive to be "Christ" like we even fail at that. Because we are human we judge. Even when there is scriptures given, as though to soothe the mind. No.
Only regret I have is that I lost the best friend of my life. Yet there is no turning back. There is no way I can regain any goodness in it. I will never be able to talk nor see. So I have to stick with who I am now.
Just this redhead chick with so much baggage. A chick that is in a way, running from the situation. Yet I have learned a new start is always a good way to build one self back. Finding that internal peace that was broken.
Sure I will read the bible and stay connected to Jehovah, God but people, well I don't know.
I wrote and blocked so many people and yet still you read, you watch and you get involved. Its sad that I am looking out for other people's interests before my own. As I have always, in some sort of weird way. That defines me.
I sigh with this mess. I am ready to shove it off to the ends of Florida into the ocean. Letting the sharks and sea life disperse the evidence. Truly I wash my hands of those people, the vicious ones who play their catty, innocent games. I will be patient for God to open your lies up wide. I am thankful I won't be there to see the rulings given.
So good bye to those who knew the Jehovah's witness Mary. I was docile and played along with all the peoples issues and lies. Now the real Mary is here. Sorry if you don't want to hear that, but I was tired of the charade and the faceted hellos and sweet words. Its over.
Jehovah knows my heart. He will find me again if I am what he wants.
I can't pretend to be out for the interests of others when they were never interested in mine. So call me cold but at least I am real.
As for the women who played roles you will get your just dues. Jehovah sees all that you do. So don't try to play coy. Those who play with the devil will be found out soon enough. But I won't be there to watch because I don't seek revenge. That is Jehovah's joy.
So dear friend of mine, if I may call you that. Look out. Lots of stuff is going to hit the fan. I won't be there. I quit. Yes I quit. Walked away. I just hope if that is what you want, you remain strong. For I admit I am weak. I am wary of the those who act Christlike but are snakes and wolves.
So be careful.
I walked away. I hope you make it. Whatever your decisions are. But make sure it isn't a "forced" choice as mine was.
Good day. I hope that enjoyment is found somewhere, in this sunny day.
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