You won't know
You won't ever know. Never really know anything that is to happen. You can only prepare for what you know about. That is how you expect life to go. Then there is this time when all uncertainty hits you. This immeasurable feeling of severe doubt that falls inside of you.
Yet you won't know. You don't know if what happened to me will happen to anyone else. You won't ever understand that I got shoved out. You won't know. That is because you assumed I left on my own accord.
Yet I only dare to say now I leave on my own accord and with Jehovah's help. That is how I move. Yet you, well I don't predict and I don't push my experiences upon you. In fact I hope that the negative isn't a part of your experience.
I only can hope that positive falls within your arms, your mind and your heart.
Yet, still, you won't know if the treatment is the same as mine. There is no need to be stressed over it either. I was worldly before and I remain that, now. I made my choice after the forcings. So you have to cling to your mind. The gut you have.
I waited for my answers and I had a feeling inside my gut that my day would be shoved at me. Just didn't expect the lies of positive to hold me in a room so they could gain numbers for attendance. I just couldn't understand the lies to hold me there. Why make me suffer in nerves only to tell me that I am not wanted nor accepted there.
That is worse than the female telling me about things I didn't want to know, because my gut had already told me the words she said.
Just cruel. And to see that people on board were long standing and career veterans of the congregation. Yet the two that lied couldn't even look at me straight nor were the others that "voted" me out there. Interesting.
Well all I can say is you won't know. You can prepare for what you expect. Yet you won't know if it is anything like my experience. Because we are two separate people who have been raised two separate ways.
Things might be polar opposites of each other. Yet you won't know. SO don't stress over it. Find your soothing bits of therapeutic ways. Find your calming mindset. Then enter.
Don't be surprised if you are not approached. Just don't expect me to be there.
I left. Never looking back. I was the hired help. I was proud to do my job. And I do it again in a heartbeat. Because I got to know you. And that was fun.
Yep. You won't know. Just be prepared for what you do know. Jehovah wants you. Keep hoping for whatever lays in your heart and search for the truth you know rings inside your mind and gut.
Just know it may not be like me.
But you won't know.
Yet you won't know. You don't know if what happened to me will happen to anyone else. You won't ever understand that I got shoved out. You won't know. That is because you assumed I left on my own accord.
Yet I only dare to say now I leave on my own accord and with Jehovah's help. That is how I move. Yet you, well I don't predict and I don't push my experiences upon you. In fact I hope that the negative isn't a part of your experience.
I only can hope that positive falls within your arms, your mind and your heart.
Yet, still, you won't know if the treatment is the same as mine. There is no need to be stressed over it either. I was worldly before and I remain that, now. I made my choice after the forcings. So you have to cling to your mind. The gut you have.
I waited for my answers and I had a feeling inside my gut that my day would be shoved at me. Just didn't expect the lies of positive to hold me in a room so they could gain numbers for attendance. I just couldn't understand the lies to hold me there. Why make me suffer in nerves only to tell me that I am not wanted nor accepted there.
That is worse than the female telling me about things I didn't want to know, because my gut had already told me the words she said.
Just cruel. And to see that people on board were long standing and career veterans of the congregation. Yet the two that lied couldn't even look at me straight nor were the others that "voted" me out there. Interesting.
Well all I can say is you won't know. You can prepare for what you expect. Yet you won't know if it is anything like my experience. Because we are two separate people who have been raised two separate ways.
Things might be polar opposites of each other. Yet you won't know. SO don't stress over it. Find your soothing bits of therapeutic ways. Find your calming mindset. Then enter.
Don't be surprised if you are not approached. Just don't expect me to be there.
I left. Never looking back. I was the hired help. I was proud to do my job. And I do it again in a heartbeat. Because I got to know you. And that was fun.
Yep. You won't know. Just be prepared for what you do know. Jehovah wants you. Keep hoping for whatever lays in your heart and search for the truth you know rings inside your mind and gut.
Just know it may not be like me.
But you won't know.
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