Ideas

The ideas that roll into my head. So grateful that I didn't jump upon them today. That I just relaxed and enjoyed myself. Not caring about the people around me. Just being happy.

Now back to that. Yeah I want to say thank you. That was just the kind of point to uplift me. That way to make me just say ahh. Sighing in the smallest of things. Knowing that I am heard.

May not be everything open to the mind but that fact that just maybe once my words were heard.

That is the best encouragement.

Even now I hope that the preparations are settled and that the next few days are calm, not shattering. I hope that things afterwards get better.

As for me I am just living. I am breathing and I am happy now. Building who I should have been five years ago.

Always look at things as ways to learn.

As for the reactions of people, well I can't say I am surprised. The genuine cruelty expressed is enough to hold me away for a while. Yet Jehovah and I are on good grounds. I am seeking his friendship but I feel no need to proclaim it.

My heart needs to settle. See and explore things but as Mary not as a labeled person. I needed to be free. Jehovah knows that. Look at David. So I am not feeling that I am punishing God nor the other way around.

I got loved by him so severely that I even begged him for these steps. So now he is watching me find who I was supposed to be. That brings a joy within and no one can tear it from me.

So once in a while it will be okay to smile, to greet. Yet nothing is more important than laughter and jumping beans. So thank you.