What is a storm
So much if me is frozen but to get up right now is a big no. The hellos that wave inside my mind and yet there is nothing I can do.
I moved. I walked fast to stir the warmth back. Noticed the few random drops of rain. Checked the status and sure enough rain sooner than I expected.
Yet when I came to the pool I could smell it in the air. This intense moisture coupled with the coolness.
Yet I enjoyed a full hour and half down by the water. Cooling my raging hormones. Gained by some words.
Indeed it was necessary to be down there alone. Perfect.
It felt like the cold walks I used to take every morning. My exercise above a gym. The way to make me really feel. It was good then. Maybe the right push to go when I can.
Calming.
I wanted to talk to someone but ended listening to a shuffle of music from celtic instruments to the blues to showtunes. Indeed a soothing experience.
Normally if I am cold I can't gain warmth again but here I am. Changing clothes for return of movies, a chai tea free from Starbuck's and whatever else I can do to draw myself a good circle.
It would be nice to talk to friends but all have projects so it's just me. Taking care of my mom.
Hmm. At times like this I wish I could just say hello in a text but I know that bridge has been burned and is buried. Sadly I don't want it to be.
In fact I need it to be going back up with stronger wood. Yet I don't push. Time. Who knows how, if it is possible.
Anyhow onward and OUT I go.
I moved. I walked fast to stir the warmth back. Noticed the few random drops of rain. Checked the status and sure enough rain sooner than I expected.
Yet when I came to the pool I could smell it in the air. This intense moisture coupled with the coolness.
Yet I enjoyed a full hour and half down by the water. Cooling my raging hormones. Gained by some words.
Indeed it was necessary to be down there alone. Perfect.
It felt like the cold walks I used to take every morning. My exercise above a gym. The way to make me really feel. It was good then. Maybe the right push to go when I can.
Calming.
I wanted to talk to someone but ended listening to a shuffle of music from celtic instruments to the blues to showtunes. Indeed a soothing experience.
Normally if I am cold I can't gain warmth again but here I am. Changing clothes for return of movies, a chai tea free from Starbuck's and whatever else I can do to draw myself a good circle.
It would be nice to talk to friends but all have projects so it's just me. Taking care of my mom.
Hmm. At times like this I wish I could just say hello in a text but I know that bridge has been burned and is buried. Sadly I don't want it to be.
In fact I need it to be going back up with stronger wood. Yet I don't push. Time. Who knows how, if it is possible.
Anyhow onward and OUT I go.
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