Extreme calm
I sit back at the last few days. Many rolling times of ups and downs. Yet I still was the strong one in the whole matter. Yet I recall someone telling me that it is healthy to get the weight out. Much more is that the necessity of just wiping the slate clean too.
Truly remarkable how clear the mind is when opening up again. The truth does really unfold. Even more so is when you feel no need to connect on any level but just letting all of it go. The weights of forgiving someone and say sorry, just fall off your shoulders.
I am free of the wondering if my words ever will be heard. I am free of saying what is overpowering me. It is such a wonderful thing. No need to be weighed down by hiding the issue any longer. Peace. Complete peace.
If you knew, how much I laugh and cry now, in joy. You would understand how restrained I was never really being able to be real to myself. Just conforming to everyone else's expectations. That is no way to live.
And yet so many do it.
Call me crazy if you want. But Jehovah knows this woman. He knows the job I did for him. I am grateful for all the hurt, pain and humiliation I gained, for I know the depth inside of me was understood of the role I had to play. And I did what I was told.
Now I experience such a wildness of me. Dare anyone say I am lost. For I know I am not now. I truly understand what my role was in all of this. Not prideful to say that it was my doing entirely. But I get the bigger picture. I was a good tool in Jehovah's plan.
For that I am grateful. Now this caged bird finally has her first taste of real peace. It sends chills throughout my soul and makes my spirit sing in all ways.
In depth freedom is felt with outstanding chills of joy. Surely someone else has experienced this.
When a job well done, is completed. Files have been stacked, sorted and put in storage. The complete satisfaction you carry, this is my smile.
Gratefulness and joy. Peace, calm and happiness.
Finally saying all that I need to and carrying on. Carefree. Floating in this blissful, blessed new me. Strange? No. Just an extreme calm.
Have you ever experienced that?
Truly remarkable how clear the mind is when opening up again. The truth does really unfold. Even more so is when you feel no need to connect on any level but just letting all of it go. The weights of forgiving someone and say sorry, just fall off your shoulders.
I am free of the wondering if my words ever will be heard. I am free of saying what is overpowering me. It is such a wonderful thing. No need to be weighed down by hiding the issue any longer. Peace. Complete peace.
If you knew, how much I laugh and cry now, in joy. You would understand how restrained I was never really being able to be real to myself. Just conforming to everyone else's expectations. That is no way to live.
And yet so many do it.
Call me crazy if you want. But Jehovah knows this woman. He knows the job I did for him. I am grateful for all the hurt, pain and humiliation I gained, for I know the depth inside of me was understood of the role I had to play. And I did what I was told.
Now I experience such a wildness of me. Dare anyone say I am lost. For I know I am not now. I truly understand what my role was in all of this. Not prideful to say that it was my doing entirely. But I get the bigger picture. I was a good tool in Jehovah's plan.
For that I am grateful. Now this caged bird finally has her first taste of real peace. It sends chills throughout my soul and makes my spirit sing in all ways.
In depth freedom is felt with outstanding chills of joy. Surely someone else has experienced this.
When a job well done, is completed. Files have been stacked, sorted and put in storage. The complete satisfaction you carry, this is my smile.
Gratefulness and joy. Peace, calm and happiness.
Finally saying all that I need to and carrying on. Carefree. Floating in this blissful, blessed new me. Strange? No. Just an extreme calm.
Have you ever experienced that?
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