Purity of a new day
Consistent oddness within me. Yet it is all good.The catering of me is splendid. No concern of the others for the start. I mean sure there are people in my life I am concerned over but the forced need to be concerned over people that barely know me.
A weight lifted.
A kindness of sorts that brings sighs of relief from deep within my spirit. Making the soul of me giddy with more joy. The overlaying happiness become stronger.
A pure way to wake up in the morning.Every part of that sun rising was throwing me at people. It was the freedom I have deep inside of me. Carefree of the way I hope. I have my strong beliefs and yet there is no slapping of my face daily for not conforming to the guidelines.
No, not all guidelines are bad but when they hinder how someone grows, it does. The people that were meant to stay in my life, did. Those who were not, left. I don't go back. I don't hold grudges.
The person I have become now still holds some of those guidelines but in depth I see reality, truth. We are all imperfect.
Yet I am moving forward. My calmness is coming back. My anger is dimming. My tolerance of life is stronger. My life is better. Surprisingly the only hurt I feel is the damaging effects of one woman. Yet I can stand here all day and every day trying to figure out her methods. Only that would cause more damage to me.
My best thing I did was forgive and move forward. On occasion the whole thing still hits a nerve. But now that I understand my reasoning for being there in the first place, my job, I have accepted many levels of peace.
And yet if I dwell on things now, the only things I really say is wow. The releases when I walked away. The exiting of all the extra baggage. The trials I learned about myself, who were my friends and who are my friends. The depth of growth I experienced, I am ever grateful for the trip.
Then last night I fell asleep in the chair in my living room. I woke up 3 times, could have gone to my bed and finished the night in warmth. Yet I maintained a sense of comfort while I finished the continuous dream.
The understanding of depth, of pursuit I sought and won. The soaking of who I am becoming, began that extreme peace.
This morning's final wake up was giddy and calm at the same time. Giddy and happy of the new day but calm in all the areas of how the days play out from now on. Each day brings more surprises. One day at a time the beauty unfolds.
The purity of a new day all begins. Ready?
A weight lifted.
A kindness of sorts that brings sighs of relief from deep within my spirit. Making the soul of me giddy with more joy. The overlaying happiness become stronger.
A pure way to wake up in the morning.Every part of that sun rising was throwing me at people. It was the freedom I have deep inside of me. Carefree of the way I hope. I have my strong beliefs and yet there is no slapping of my face daily for not conforming to the guidelines.
No, not all guidelines are bad but when they hinder how someone grows, it does. The people that were meant to stay in my life, did. Those who were not, left. I don't go back. I don't hold grudges.
The person I have become now still holds some of those guidelines but in depth I see reality, truth. We are all imperfect.
Yet I am moving forward. My calmness is coming back. My anger is dimming. My tolerance of life is stronger. My life is better. Surprisingly the only hurt I feel is the damaging effects of one woman. Yet I can stand here all day and every day trying to figure out her methods. Only that would cause more damage to me.
My best thing I did was forgive and move forward. On occasion the whole thing still hits a nerve. But now that I understand my reasoning for being there in the first place, my job, I have accepted many levels of peace.
And yet if I dwell on things now, the only things I really say is wow. The releases when I walked away. The exiting of all the extra baggage. The trials I learned about myself, who were my friends and who are my friends. The depth of growth I experienced, I am ever grateful for the trip.
Then last night I fell asleep in the chair in my living room. I woke up 3 times, could have gone to my bed and finished the night in warmth. Yet I maintained a sense of comfort while I finished the continuous dream.
The understanding of depth, of pursuit I sought and won. The soaking of who I am becoming, began that extreme peace.
This morning's final wake up was giddy and calm at the same time. Giddy and happy of the new day but calm in all the areas of how the days play out from now on. Each day brings more surprises. One day at a time the beauty unfolds.
The purity of a new day all begins. Ready?
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