Dreams of long ago pursued
So where do I go from here? Well I keep moving forward. Finishing my education and finally getting into the program of pearls so I can be freelancing on buying. LOL
It is my dream to be a buyer of pearls. So silly but that is the biggest part of the dream. Then it trickles down to traveling worldwide and making jewelry. Yeah that is my only real dream from my youth and now.
Perhaps too hopeful in the dream but I would like to see myself go forward and even leap where I can. Yet money is always an issue. Always. Never quite at the making it list, never really even near the positive signs either. Yet I keep hanging in there.
What they say about a starving artist is so true. We really are starving until we hit it big, unfortunately it is when we die we make our boom. I don't want to get to that point, please and thank you.
I have much to explore and give to the world. So much of Mary to expand.
Yet here I am sitting in my room seated by my sketch pad and paints and no means to explore them. Granted the itching is to do research, on a form of drawings I hope to pursue soon.
Still I cling to the idea that all will find a balance for me. Somewhere that I find my complete peace with being exactly who I am. Right now it is a little tipsy on the scale but slowly the steps are getting closer.
One day I hope to be positive in my accounts. Too optimistic but I only owe under a low amount. So it is so possible.
For now I will just keep on moving with my head held high. Slightly nervous, but that is me nowadays. Part of the new Mary. It is okay it a genetic thing. Continuing and striving to be stronger.
I keep hoping that my dreams come true. Even if it is one at a time. One year into the next. I will keep pursuing until I cannot.
So I have an abundance of hugs left for an old friend. One day I plan to give it to them. Just not this year.
Hopes. Dreams and constant attention. Learning and growing. Keep on moving and praying. That is part of the new Mary. Did you ever think I would be like that?
It is my dream to be a buyer of pearls. So silly but that is the biggest part of the dream. Then it trickles down to traveling worldwide and making jewelry. Yeah that is my only real dream from my youth and now.
Perhaps too hopeful in the dream but I would like to see myself go forward and even leap where I can. Yet money is always an issue. Always. Never quite at the making it list, never really even near the positive signs either. Yet I keep hanging in there.
What they say about a starving artist is so true. We really are starving until we hit it big, unfortunately it is when we die we make our boom. I don't want to get to that point, please and thank you.
I have much to explore and give to the world. So much of Mary to expand.
Yet here I am sitting in my room seated by my sketch pad and paints and no means to explore them. Granted the itching is to do research, on a form of drawings I hope to pursue soon.
Still I cling to the idea that all will find a balance for me. Somewhere that I find my complete peace with being exactly who I am. Right now it is a little tipsy on the scale but slowly the steps are getting closer.
One day I hope to be positive in my accounts. Too optimistic but I only owe under a low amount. So it is so possible.
For now I will just keep on moving with my head held high. Slightly nervous, but that is me nowadays. Part of the new Mary. It is okay it a genetic thing. Continuing and striving to be stronger.
I keep hoping that my dreams come true. Even if it is one at a time. One year into the next. I will keep pursuing until I cannot.
So I have an abundance of hugs left for an old friend. One day I plan to give it to them. Just not this year.
Hopes. Dreams and constant attention. Learning and growing. Keep on moving and praying. That is part of the new Mary. Did you ever think I would be like that?
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