What work is like
New and weird ways to hold myself captivated through a long day of work. Just the simple things that bring your knees to a running phase. Yet not killing all of the energy you have. For standing, walking or running to help people can be completely draining.
A day doesn't go by that my gratitude is sent to Jehovah. Each day I wake and each day I survive. It is the kindness he gives. For certain there are times where just putting out a white flag for surrender is high. Though I don't. I make it through.
Even though I may appear to be healthy in my smile and my outward appearance there is a challenging battle I face inside of me. And believe me tears well up. I am seen weakened. I can tell you that used to scare me, but no longer. I know I am not like I used to be. I have some severely rough days.
Today is one but I am holding my smile together. Seeing that it is raining I will make it. I love the rain. A calm inside my spirit speaks.
The serenity and perseverance I cling to. Such the thoughts of stresses that will come in a full flare day is astronomical. Yet I can hold on. I don't ask for anything except acceptance that I am over my limit. My body is in full shut down mode.
My rages of a temperature demands I stay home and here I am. Proving I am diligent. Perseverance.
I just laugh and sigh reminding myself just one more day. Just one more then a collapse is allowed.
Long hours. Two jobs. Heart strong. Heated aches but life, Jehovah pulls me through. Making the light at the end of the day, worthwhile to hang on.
Not sure about anyone else experience this but I do. So hear me talk about love, life, heartache, endurance, laughter, strength , peace, calm and joy. Nothing I do is out of hate.
And me I hope down the road people will understand I am much more fragile then I appear. I do break. I do cry. I do fall very weak. And if that is okay wonderful.
For me, it is just who I am.
A day doesn't go by that my gratitude is sent to Jehovah. Each day I wake and each day I survive. It is the kindness he gives. For certain there are times where just putting out a white flag for surrender is high. Though I don't. I make it through.
Even though I may appear to be healthy in my smile and my outward appearance there is a challenging battle I face inside of me. And believe me tears well up. I am seen weakened. I can tell you that used to scare me, but no longer. I know I am not like I used to be. I have some severely rough days.
Today is one but I am holding my smile together. Seeing that it is raining I will make it. I love the rain. A calm inside my spirit speaks.
The serenity and perseverance I cling to. Such the thoughts of stresses that will come in a full flare day is astronomical. Yet I can hold on. I don't ask for anything except acceptance that I am over my limit. My body is in full shut down mode.
My rages of a temperature demands I stay home and here I am. Proving I am diligent. Perseverance.
I just laugh and sigh reminding myself just one more day. Just one more then a collapse is allowed.
Long hours. Two jobs. Heart strong. Heated aches but life, Jehovah pulls me through. Making the light at the end of the day, worthwhile to hang on.
Not sure about anyone else experience this but I do. So hear me talk about love, life, heartache, endurance, laughter, strength , peace, calm and joy. Nothing I do is out of hate.
And me I hope down the road people will understand I am much more fragile then I appear. I do break. I do cry. I do fall very weak. And if that is okay wonderful.
For me, it is just who I am.
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