Grains of sand
I sat there listening to my mind twirling and twirling reasons not to get out and so something. The idea of being in an area that I knew I woild run into someone terrified me almost as much as doing something on my own.
Oh not because of the reason of being alone. No. Just the factor of planning and planning to go and just talking myself out of the event.
Yet I was grateful of going. I spent two hours wandering around a campus meeting people and learning about cultures. I thought I would just clamp up and walk away. Yet there were several times where I did not back down but I pushed forward and enjoyed the time.
It's a good thing to over plan but other times it's good to just let the wind kick you. It was such a beautiful day and the people made it even better.
Though running into a few old friends was hard but the encouragement I got was just the pitch I needed.
Surprisingly how well Jehovah puts the right people in your pathway. Even those who may be wrong for you. Yet in the whole experience is the lesson you were taught. A good education you can gain from just listening to what Jehovah says.
And that is what my mind was twirling over. Just the lessons taught over the years. With this I am grateful to say I am starting to hear what Jehovah is saying again.
Finally having the words reach my heart again. It such a slow process but every little tick is the best joy, tear flowing moment. Each step, sure there will be moments when the words don't stick. Yet the ones that do are even more precious than the first time the sank in.
This is my blessing. This is my struggle. Yet it isn't really a struggle but a challenge I welcome, wholeheartedly.
So sure I felt queasy walking around an area that I would bump into someone I knew but it was worth it. I had a grand time and I thanked Jehovah for sending people to encourage me.
Pure bliss in the smallest grains of sand.
Oh not because of the reason of being alone. No. Just the factor of planning and planning to go and just talking myself out of the event.
Yet I was grateful of going. I spent two hours wandering around a campus meeting people and learning about cultures. I thought I would just clamp up and walk away. Yet there were several times where I did not back down but I pushed forward and enjoyed the time.
It's a good thing to over plan but other times it's good to just let the wind kick you. It was such a beautiful day and the people made it even better.
Though running into a few old friends was hard but the encouragement I got was just the pitch I needed.
Surprisingly how well Jehovah puts the right people in your pathway. Even those who may be wrong for you. Yet in the whole experience is the lesson you were taught. A good education you can gain from just listening to what Jehovah says.
And that is what my mind was twirling over. Just the lessons taught over the years. With this I am grateful to say I am starting to hear what Jehovah is saying again.
Finally having the words reach my heart again. It such a slow process but every little tick is the best joy, tear flowing moment. Each step, sure there will be moments when the words don't stick. Yet the ones that do are even more precious than the first time the sank in.
This is my blessing. This is my struggle. Yet it isn't really a struggle but a challenge I welcome, wholeheartedly.
So sure I felt queasy walking around an area that I would bump into someone I knew but it was worth it. I had a grand time and I thanked Jehovah for sending people to encourage me.
Pure bliss in the smallest grains of sand.
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