Process
I think what is profound in this whole process of life is that people really dig inside themselves and think others are finding ways to be ruthless. Severity behind that is depth. Surprisingly I don't do that to people. As crazy as it sounds I could care less after my initial reaction a few months back.
When I realized some people just can't bare me saying what is shown in a clear observation. I also learned that when people ask for the truth from me, most don't really want to hear it. For the fact that often I hit right on the nail the most depth to it.
As much as it takes one person to try to peel back my layers it might as well be all the wrong blockages. Several wrongs turns in my life make it known that any way you try to understand me, not once will I allow you the opportunity to tear me down.
I understand that is how people have to be. They have to see only what another person has stated about a person's life to gain some sort of gratification, to dissect someone. It is the sad way of life but some live it like that on day to day.
Unfortunately in that case you bear witness to only hate and prejudices. Sadly I am in great understanding that is how a majority of people live their lives.
In certain proof of never even talking to the person, it only enhances their ignorance in the subject matter. For me I have learned to not talk to those who have judged me based on hearsay.
It is almost some sort of punishment they have for themselves. The need to adjust life so to prepare themselves for hating me before even looking inside. As I am who I am it pains me to say I only expected it to happen.
For the big picture, the tiniest of details is thrashing loudly in the wind. I understand I will always be seen as this type of person because that is the status people have labelled me as.
Truly defines a person, in my book. And though as I forgive you daily or multiple times a day, I don't look to reach out. I have plenty of excitement in my own life. So much so to add yours is by far a waste of time.
So scuttle along.
I am not intending to ruffle feathers but if that is what happens by all means adjust your understandings. For we are given people who clash with us in personality for a reason. To learn.
My only hope is that whatever dig at people to assume things about me or to even place a stamped label on me, from my past that they remember Jehovah forgives all. Even forgets our sins. It is a human that rehashes it.
So by far stop. I do not have any means to look at others and judge them so why would you? None of us are above what Jehovah reads in our hearts.
So stop trying to read mine. You will never know it nor me. For I will not step in your line of sight to be attacked.
I have gained a great insight of information about who I never want to be. Also who I hope not to turn back too. I learned and applied these teaching so much that even at times I feel longing, I really am not. I replay actions and words over and over only to dissect what lesson I was supposed to learn from Jehovah.
Sure there will be days where I hurt badly over people of my past but you can be certain I don't wallow in it. Because my past is gone. I can look back to be satisfied of how I applied the right changes.
Surprisingly today I adjusted myself again. Daily, for the rest of my life I will be. That is what makes me real. Once I stop learning I hope it is the day I take my last breath.
I can't expect people to understand me. Much less want to really get to know me. And even though that is sad, it doesn't bother me much. I have accepted who I am and I aim not to care if I please any human. My will is to please Jehovah.
When I realized some people just can't bare me saying what is shown in a clear observation. I also learned that when people ask for the truth from me, most don't really want to hear it. For the fact that often I hit right on the nail the most depth to it.
As much as it takes one person to try to peel back my layers it might as well be all the wrong blockages. Several wrongs turns in my life make it known that any way you try to understand me, not once will I allow you the opportunity to tear me down.
I understand that is how people have to be. They have to see only what another person has stated about a person's life to gain some sort of gratification, to dissect someone. It is the sad way of life but some live it like that on day to day.
Unfortunately in that case you bear witness to only hate and prejudices. Sadly I am in great understanding that is how a majority of people live their lives.
In certain proof of never even talking to the person, it only enhances their ignorance in the subject matter. For me I have learned to not talk to those who have judged me based on hearsay.
It is almost some sort of punishment they have for themselves. The need to adjust life so to prepare themselves for hating me before even looking inside. As I am who I am it pains me to say I only expected it to happen.
For the big picture, the tiniest of details is thrashing loudly in the wind. I understand I will always be seen as this type of person because that is the status people have labelled me as.
Truly defines a person, in my book. And though as I forgive you daily or multiple times a day, I don't look to reach out. I have plenty of excitement in my own life. So much so to add yours is by far a waste of time.
So scuttle along.
I am not intending to ruffle feathers but if that is what happens by all means adjust your understandings. For we are given people who clash with us in personality for a reason. To learn.
My only hope is that whatever dig at people to assume things about me or to even place a stamped label on me, from my past that they remember Jehovah forgives all. Even forgets our sins. It is a human that rehashes it.
So by far stop. I do not have any means to look at others and judge them so why would you? None of us are above what Jehovah reads in our hearts.
So stop trying to read mine. You will never know it nor me. For I will not step in your line of sight to be attacked.
I have gained a great insight of information about who I never want to be. Also who I hope not to turn back too. I learned and applied these teaching so much that even at times I feel longing, I really am not. I replay actions and words over and over only to dissect what lesson I was supposed to learn from Jehovah.
Sure there will be days where I hurt badly over people of my past but you can be certain I don't wallow in it. Because my past is gone. I can look back to be satisfied of how I applied the right changes.
Surprisingly today I adjusted myself again. Daily, for the rest of my life I will be. That is what makes me real. Once I stop learning I hope it is the day I take my last breath.
I can't expect people to understand me. Much less want to really get to know me. And even though that is sad, it doesn't bother me much. I have accepted who I am and I aim not to care if I please any human. My will is to please Jehovah.
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