Awake.
I woke with no strength. I knew yesterday's burst of energy was the sign of crashing. So this morning I did everything I had promised my mother I would do. Then I took some Advil in hopes the burning nerves would cease and jumping muscles would calm.
Now I am seated in my golden chair breathing evenly and focusing my raging mind on the lessons of Daniel and Esther. Calming my mind to place the nuisance of pain elsewhere outside of me. Pain management I have done since a child. Refocus and mind over matter.
I meditated for a long time over the daily scripture this morning. How true to rely on Jehovah not just today but any day. Yet it was more needed today, approximately sent to retrain the mind.
All I know is that there is a little bit of family support and a lot of opposition. So I know there is no one I talk to but Jehovah. So today it is plenty of prayer and discussions inside my mind over scenarios and ways to achieve what I can.
Only goal today is to get enough rest and focus for tomorrow. My only thought is to ease the pain. Best way is through sleep and mind games.
Still through everything I smile. Not only because I am happy but because I know I am capable of enduring. It is my trials that help me realize just how precious Jesus' gift was and still is.
It's the slow process of transferring the depth of the ransom within mind to heart. Finding myself drawn to want to know more. And this is the blessing. The breathing is a gift.
A thanksgiving to Jehovah this morning for waking me up. How about you, are you grateful you gained one more day to learn?
Now I am seated in my golden chair breathing evenly and focusing my raging mind on the lessons of Daniel and Esther. Calming my mind to place the nuisance of pain elsewhere outside of me. Pain management I have done since a child. Refocus and mind over matter.
I meditated for a long time over the daily scripture this morning. How true to rely on Jehovah not just today but any day. Yet it was more needed today, approximately sent to retrain the mind.
All I know is that there is a little bit of family support and a lot of opposition. So I know there is no one I talk to but Jehovah. So today it is plenty of prayer and discussions inside my mind over scenarios and ways to achieve what I can.
Only goal today is to get enough rest and focus for tomorrow. My only thought is to ease the pain. Best way is through sleep and mind games.
Still through everything I smile. Not only because I am happy but because I know I am capable of enduring. It is my trials that help me realize just how precious Jesus' gift was and still is.
It's the slow process of transferring the depth of the ransom within mind to heart. Finding myself drawn to want to know more. And this is the blessing. The breathing is a gift.
A thanksgiving to Jehovah this morning for waking me up. How about you, are you grateful you gained one more day to learn?
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