Meditation
More coffee was taken. Toast and jam consumed. Life beginning the day. No walk but equal amounts will be provided later.
Sunlight is now blinding me as I sit here reading over the daily scripture. Loyalty.
Jonathan was loyal to Jehovah in which he was loyal to David above his own father, Saul. A nice reminder that when it comes to these points in life we must remain steadfast in our goal to not let anything wave us from Jehovah.
I did that. I let my feelings for a man divide me. That was my choice, that was my siding and my reasoning. And if I really had been looking at the situation I should have been speaking up sooner but I was weakened by my desires.
It's a lot to take in. Even more so are the facts that I let myself stop going to the halls only in fear I might bump into someone I know. I allowed once again the wrong kind of fear to take hold of me.
I separated myself so far from Jehovah that now it will take years to come back. Yet that is okay because every step I take is now for me, completely.
I am grateful for the bad choices I made. I had to learn the hard way. Sometimes that is the best way to learn.
So now I am just meditating over 1Samuel 19:1-6 and to dig into myself the truth in the situation.
Then learn how to finally apply it in areas that I need to. This is the goodness and kindness of Jehovah's discipline and protection.
And however long it takes I will be there listening where I can. Moreover trying to see where in my life the adjustments can be made.
Even more so are the surprisingly, amazing support I gained from friends and family. Seeing me happy and wanting me to seek the truth to grow.
This is good. Grand to a smaller scale. This i give thanks to Jehovah for.
Now the light hides behind a cloud but I still feel the warmth. How about you?
Sunlight is now blinding me as I sit here reading over the daily scripture. Loyalty.
Jonathan was loyal to Jehovah in which he was loyal to David above his own father, Saul. A nice reminder that when it comes to these points in life we must remain steadfast in our goal to not let anything wave us from Jehovah.
I did that. I let my feelings for a man divide me. That was my choice, that was my siding and my reasoning. And if I really had been looking at the situation I should have been speaking up sooner but I was weakened by my desires.
It's a lot to take in. Even more so are the facts that I let myself stop going to the halls only in fear I might bump into someone I know. I allowed once again the wrong kind of fear to take hold of me.
I separated myself so far from Jehovah that now it will take years to come back. Yet that is okay because every step I take is now for me, completely.
I am grateful for the bad choices I made. I had to learn the hard way. Sometimes that is the best way to learn.
So now I am just meditating over 1Samuel 19:1-6 and to dig into myself the truth in the situation.
Then learn how to finally apply it in areas that I need to. This is the goodness and kindness of Jehovah's discipline and protection.
And however long it takes I will be there listening where I can. Moreover trying to see where in my life the adjustments can be made.
Even more so are the surprisingly, amazing support I gained from friends and family. Seeing me happy and wanting me to seek the truth to grow.
This is good. Grand to a smaller scale. This i give thanks to Jehovah for.
Now the light hides behind a cloud but I still feel the warmth. How about you?
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