Slow night ticks
The slow ticks of the night stroll on. The shows of PBS strum through my eyes. The evening slows down and the night expands.
One part of the day had me jumping in joy and another had me admitting my downfalls. Yet in the whole day I have learned much about myself. Much more are the steps I need to take to go towards my goals.
Granted I won't get any response from people and those who do respond think I am catty. Far from it because my life is more mine but only with Jehovah.
Not sorry if whatever I say bugs someone. I have come to understand how complex my life is. Too much so to include anyone in it. So for my words to affect someone, it's their issue not mine.
I say what is streaming from my mind. Very rarely do I reach out to people. I am just saying whatever is here in my heart and mind. At times I realize, in the past, I staked people to the poem but it is necessary to clean the heart and mind of the harsh parts in order to continue making improvements. So I know this bothers people. In all honesty I did not ask you to read my work. I only write for my therapy.
Sadly I have seen the results of my words in other people's views. I have experienced the harsh reality of those responding. Though as hateful and spiteful they are I still am grateful for the reward of loving you.
Surprisingly I just feel compelled to do that. So as much as I am attacked for voicing my life, I am okay with it. I understand we all have imperfections and will use whatever is available to boost ourselves. Yet I don't need that.
I am content with myself. If I need a boost I will take a walk, paint, write or read scriptures or my favorite books. Even at times I will take a car ride and find a new location to enjoy.
Even more wonderful is the good and bad responses of those who know nothing about me, even those who thought they knew me. I am always changing. The layers I have, I slowly reveal bits and pieces about myself. This is the lessons that help me grow, help the improvements to change. So please be a light or a darkness, either way I grow from it.
And to say all this helps me further press towards answers and prayers.
My day slows. My mind settles and the cooling of air chills me. I am cuddled inside my sixties blanket that belonged to my grandmother. Staying warm and smiling.
Today has been interesting and full of lessons. Sweetness. Kindness. Love. Hope. Even darkness but also beautiful lighted paths that I skip along because I am so giddy and happy.
Finally finding the root to help me reach for my spiritual growth. The push I needed to expand my eyes, mind and heart to actually hear what Jehovah is telling me.
This I call progress. I thank Jehovah for the comfort from all spectrums of people. For I know I needed to hear the reasoning.
Blessed.
One part of the day had me jumping in joy and another had me admitting my downfalls. Yet in the whole day I have learned much about myself. Much more are the steps I need to take to go towards my goals.
Granted I won't get any response from people and those who do respond think I am catty. Far from it because my life is more mine but only with Jehovah.
Not sorry if whatever I say bugs someone. I have come to understand how complex my life is. Too much so to include anyone in it. So for my words to affect someone, it's their issue not mine.
I say what is streaming from my mind. Very rarely do I reach out to people. I am just saying whatever is here in my heart and mind. At times I realize, in the past, I staked people to the poem but it is necessary to clean the heart and mind of the harsh parts in order to continue making improvements. So I know this bothers people. In all honesty I did not ask you to read my work. I only write for my therapy.
Sadly I have seen the results of my words in other people's views. I have experienced the harsh reality of those responding. Though as hateful and spiteful they are I still am grateful for the reward of loving you.
Surprisingly I just feel compelled to do that. So as much as I am attacked for voicing my life, I am okay with it. I understand we all have imperfections and will use whatever is available to boost ourselves. Yet I don't need that.
I am content with myself. If I need a boost I will take a walk, paint, write or read scriptures or my favorite books. Even at times I will take a car ride and find a new location to enjoy.
Even more wonderful is the good and bad responses of those who know nothing about me, even those who thought they knew me. I am always changing. The layers I have, I slowly reveal bits and pieces about myself. This is the lessons that help me grow, help the improvements to change. So please be a light or a darkness, either way I grow from it.
And to say all this helps me further press towards answers and prayers.
My day slows. My mind settles and the cooling of air chills me. I am cuddled inside my sixties blanket that belonged to my grandmother. Staying warm and smiling.
Today has been interesting and full of lessons. Sweetness. Kindness. Love. Hope. Even darkness but also beautiful lighted paths that I skip along because I am so giddy and happy.
Finally finding the root to help me reach for my spiritual growth. The push I needed to expand my eyes, mind and heart to actually hear what Jehovah is telling me.
This I call progress. I thank Jehovah for the comfort from all spectrums of people. For I know I needed to hear the reasoning.
Blessed.
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