Joy and fear in Jehovah

Words that restrain me are profound. The necessary means to just let go. Surely the expectations I place up on myself are even too high for me. I have to learn new ways to just free myself of the concerns that press too hard on me.

These simple pieces in life are just that - quite ordinary. Yet they seem a million miles away. Then my laziness comes into play. I procrastinate until the burst of energy finds me. Just as the days of a sprinter came into view. 

Though long term I will have to find another way. Another type of aggression to put on myself, to motivate. Otherwise I am just sitting, waiting for the last minute. Then all will be too late. I cannot let that be my reasoning.

Always need to be alert. 

Today is calm and simple even though the stresses and words rumbling are high. I still can cope. There is only one reward today my lessons. 

No matter what is definitely putting the emotions of fear and giddiness combined, soon will be put down. 

Tonight I place my first of three interview away. Then tomorrow I do something that has me trembling, but by far goodness. 

It is only right I experience this. It's a grand kindness Jehovah gives me. Each day there after I look forward to it. 

Gentle and happy. Walking in joy and only fear of Jehovah.  Each step from today are open. That I am looking forward to.

So I let my words conform me. I let them degrade me only so I can learn where I need to improve. Soon one day down the road,Jehovah will open wide. Until that day, I keep reaching for eyes and ears within my heart for his depth to grow. Enhancing my spirit in ways I never imagined.

That is what I hope for.