Recognizing
It's nice when you recognize you need something but you are not scared to go for it. Even though knowing opposition is just around the corner.
What is exciting is that life and love you have within yourself helps you soar.
I can't expect anyone to understand that level because some never reach it. Yet when you gain just a glimpse of it the surge to control and fly from it is high.
Simply put is that the aggressive parts of me tell me to keep grabbing. Not in the aspect of stealing or being egotistical but in the sense of taking only what I know I need.
There are those who have to take and take. I am not one of those people. I have contentment. I have satisfaction and I have my patience. Although there are times when my stress is high and I strike out.
Yet not for long. Definitely not out of character either. So much of me is built. The new walls. The new person. The boundaries and standards I set into place. So far it is welcoming and protecting.
Each time I step outside there is a battle but the question of whether I choice to fight or if I find insignificance in it. See that is what has changed. I thought I needed to attend and participate in every battle, but I don't.
Some parts of the war Jehovah takes care of. A gift of love. One by one the new steps I take are starting to make him smile. That is the best feeling in the world.
Slowly I become who he wants me to be and who I need to be. That is all I can be, for now.
What is exciting is that life and love you have within yourself helps you soar.
I can't expect anyone to understand that level because some never reach it. Yet when you gain just a glimpse of it the surge to control and fly from it is high.
Simply put is that the aggressive parts of me tell me to keep grabbing. Not in the aspect of stealing or being egotistical but in the sense of taking only what I know I need.
There are those who have to take and take. I am not one of those people. I have contentment. I have satisfaction and I have my patience. Although there are times when my stress is high and I strike out.
Yet not for long. Definitely not out of character either. So much of me is built. The new walls. The new person. The boundaries and standards I set into place. So far it is welcoming and protecting.
Each time I step outside there is a battle but the question of whether I choice to fight or if I find insignificance in it. See that is what has changed. I thought I needed to attend and participate in every battle, but I don't.
Some parts of the war Jehovah takes care of. A gift of love. One by one the new steps I take are starting to make him smile. That is the best feeling in the world.
Slowly I become who he wants me to be and who I need to be. That is all I can be, for now.
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